Wed, 12 Dec 2007 11:05:31 -0800 info@glutenfreeforum.com (Gluten-Free Celiac Disease Forum at Celiac.com (Home)) IP.Blog 60
I am angry that I'm sick. Most of all I'm angry that I feel like this problem has been affecting me my whole life. Now I'm trying to control it and when I have a little slip up I pay major consequences. About three weeks after that episode I get sick again. After looking up hidden sources of gluten I found that I paid all of my bills on the same day and got sick from licking all of the envelopes. This time my sinuses went crazy along with my moods. I had crazy anxiety so I couldn't sleep all night and this is balanced out with depression. I have been this way for about five days but the intensity is slowly decreasing.

I am feeling so alienated because I don't want to spread my rotten mood around to my friends and room mates. On the other hand I have no one to talk to about this. No one likes hearing people complain about being sick, especially when I have so many symptoms. I feel like the people I do talk to think I am paranoid and have a hard time believing what makes me sick because symptoms don't manifest until the next day. Then I start to think I am paranoid but I can't ignore the physical reaction and my emotions going crazy. I feel like this problem is controlling my life and I want it back.

I've got another appointment with the doctor in a couple weeks, but I feel like she will tell me I'm anemic and that will be the end of her concern. I just want to not have accidents again. Now that I know what it is like to live without anxiety there is no way I want to have that feeling again. I feel like I can link almost every illness in my life to this problem and I don't want to feel sick anymore.]]> Tue, 17 Apr 2007 00:54:19 -0700 ...so i am new here and still trying to figure out the site....mostly what i am hoping for by joining is finding some one to relate to....i guess i'll start with how i ended up here...
...if i think about it i can remember being sick always....as a kid i always had a headache...i also had chronic sinusitis and what i thought of as skin rashes....my family did not have alot of money growing up so the doctors i saw were not top notch....example: when i was 12 i remember being sick and the doctor asking me if i just didn't like school...i happened to be on the honor roll...later he informed me i had pneumonia which resulted in asthma...come to think of it when i was nine my mother took me to urgent care because i'd been having intense abdominal pains for a few days....the doctors there told my mother i had appendicitis but it went away...is that possible?...or did they not want to do more tests?...i don't know...
....fast forward to when i was twenty...i was rear-ended in a car accident and the doctors said the joint injuries in my neck and lower back were too severe to have been caused by this minor accident...i knew i had not been injured before and that i now was in pain...i ended up having to quit my job as a hairdresser(which i really enjoyed) and take out huge student loans instead of working to pay for school...
...i have been in school for two years now and my energy level seems to have only gone down hill...while my life long anxiety has increased accompanied by deppression........
...i am not even clear on when i started having digestive problems...but they started to get really bad last year...i was avoiding eating things like pizza and pasta at certain restaraunts because they made me feel sick....eventually i felt sick and week all the time....i was losing my apetite for all foods and only eating because i had to...
...my sister is lactose intolerant so i tried cutting out dairy but it didn't seem to help....one day it just occured to me...i remembered that my brother was sick as a baby....he was diagnosed with celiac disease as an infant but during puberty his symptoms seemed to disappear....his doctor told him that celiac disease sometimes just goes away....he had suffered from more classic symptoms which i was experiencing lately...
...by thanksgiving i was having really bad stomach cramps with bloating and constant nausea (along with that pleasant gurgling that makes it so easy to concentrate in class)....i went to the nearby book store and thumbed through every gluten sensitivety book i could find...i felt relief and dissapointment at the same time....
...i have since read three books on the subject and found alot that i can relate to....i have been trying to go gluten free(and dairy free) for about three months and i just keep feeling better and better....when i do slip and eat the wrong thing my symptoms are really obvious....i feel better knowing where my discomfort has been coming from all of these years and i look forward to continuing to feel more like a normal person....]]> Wed, 21 Mar 2007 01:47:56 -0700