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Here Goes The Cold Water.

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blog-0093478001376891412.jpgIm Justin, Im 21 years old, and here I am, it's 1:40 in the morning, I have to be up at 4:45 to get ready for work.
Tonight, as happens some nights, I cannot sleep, something unsteady rushes through me.
Recently i have lost much weight due to finding out a couple weeks ago through diagnosis that i have celiacs disease and i have cut out gluten all together.
All my life i have had problems with my stomach, constant diarrhea, stomach cramping, inability to regain appetite, depression and anxiety. I even tried to commit suicide on 12/12/12.
I am now finding out that celiac may be a contributing factor to everything i have been through. It would seem as if this should be...i don't know....a good thing. But the truth is i don't know if it is, or just a curse waving in front of my face, constantly watching me struggle, yet it had been hidden from sight for so many years. Could it possibly be true, Dropping out of college, nearly finding out whether or not hell exists, and being completely unable to control the way my body had felt, all of this could not be caused solely from a disease....or could it. I'm sorry for being so depressive tonight, i just don't know where to turn and this is the best i can do. I hope now that i may sleep, i hope now that i may start my journey through the rough times i have placed myself in through my actions, i just hope this passes, i hope some day i can be the Fiance that my woman deserves, and i just hope there is someone out there who understands.
thank you.

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Hey Justin! Welcome to the board. I'm sorry you're feeling so down about everything right now. I understand what it's like to go through years of stomach issues, depression, chronic migraines, etc and then to find out it's all because of this one little thing you're eating. So you cut that part out, but that is also depressing. It sucks honestly, but you have to come to terms that this is your reality now.
As for the weight loss, we should just trade places haha. I gained weight when I went gluten free. And as an almost 20 year old woman, gaining 20 pounds in 3 months is terrifying and embarrassing.
I joined this board recently also (a few months ago I think) and it has been a great support system. Lots of the men and women on here have been dealing with their diagnosis for years and give really great advice. And the group of newly diagnosed is a great support. I hope you find it as helpful as I have this summer.
You need to accept that you have Celiac, forgive yourself for making your future harder, and put the rest behind you. Keep your head up and move forward. Things will get better.

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I found out 3 days ago and it feels like the world has something against you. Why has it made you different to everyone else. But you have to really on sites like this, these sites let people like us come together, become strong and fight back. It lets us say "no, we will not let you, I still have my life".


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