Ok so here goes. Im not even sure if I should be posting since I am feeling rather sad due to contamination
I have several questions and have also posted to other boards to break this down
I went gluten free last spring (its January now).
the brain fog/depression cleared completely.
I feel smart, alive and I have so much energy I had to start running (anywhere from 5-8k) to let it out. Due to the running/exercise I dont have back problems anymore, I have strenghthened my core. I have lost 35lbs through not substituting (eliminating most carbs) and running, taking care of myself
I started noticing things since I can think clearly now. I was unhappy in my marriage so I have separated.
I feel like I know what I want in life now
I joke around and call this my midlife crisis (i am 29 but hey what if I only live to be 60? it happens alot, car accidents, cancer what not)
so Im 29, did not have the luxury of a childhood so now I feel this urgent need to do all that stuff like go to the club (tried the club, didnt like it. Not doing that agian),
find a few guys, get a small cute tattoo,
I have webbed toes so I had them pierced. I always wanted to do that. Its pretty cute actually
(this cant all be glutens fault right?)
I feel like im gonna explode if I dont have fun. I feel robbed because I never had the opertunity to do these things I was supposed to do as a teenager (dont get me wrong I am being responsible about it
I just worry because I look at miley cyrus and I see that she was a good kid until she went gluten free? you can attribute her insanity to many things, being a celeb, teen crazies, whatever but I just feel like I see a pattern and it worries me
Surely I cannot blame gluten for all that has happened right?
I have no desire to be married but I know that if I never switched diets id still be there, oblivious to my need for attention/affection, thinking this is the happiest ill ever be.
Is this completely off? am I overthinking this? Am I going off the deep end? this is so completely oposite of pre-gluten me!
maybe it will tapper off after a few months? (its been ~9 months since I ditched gluten)
The truth is I am completely happy (like for real) even through the process of being (recently) separated. Tottaly happy! until I get contaminated.....I cant even shower today, dishes are piling up, Ugh! I feel like I cant trust my thoughts when this happens. I feel like I shouldnt talk to anyone because I will scared ppl away from me (as of now I do not have true Friends that would understand my condition)