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Mourning My Loss?


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ashleyld Rookie

Is it normal to mourn my loss of freedom? I guess thats what it is. I am really sad and have been since i got my daughters results. I got really emotional cleaning out our cabinets. Thinking about all the things that need to be replaced. 

I also have the anxiety waiting for My and the rest of my families results. 

anyone else feel like this just after a diagnosis?

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BlessedMommy Rising Star

Congratulations on finally getting a diagnosis! How great to finally know what's going on and have it be something that is treatable with diet.

 

In the meantime, do know that it's okay to grieve and mourn the loss of spontaneity. I've been gluten free for quite awhile now and I still have days where I feel kind of sad at the loss of spontaneity and freedom. It's a huge change to just go from eating whatever to all of a sudden having to analyze every single thing that you eat. Do know that it gets better and easier the longer you stay at it, though, as you grow to know which products are safe and learn more safe recipes.

 

It's hard also to get rid of things in the kitchen, but I was happy to be able to get new shiny kitchen things instead of the old scratched up ones that I was using and the peace of mind of having a gluten free kitchen is worth it.

 

As far as replacement cost, I went through and discontinued using the old things right away but I didn't replace everything all at once. I did without some of them and gradually replaced things one or two at a time (I also told people I wanted kitchen things for my birthday) until my kitchen was mostly back where it needed to be, equipment wise. That eased some of the financial pressure of having to buy so many new things.

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Yes, I was mourning the loss of foods that I loved.  At first, I tried very hard to replicate in someway all the things I loved and make them gluten free.  Of course, this approach only frustrated me more since the gluten free replication did not in anyway satisfy the craving for the foods that I loved and remembered. 

 

Then I started to think about it differently.  I started to focus on naturally gluten free foods that tasted great and expand the foods that I ate.  Through this process I developed new favorite foods and dishes that tasted fantastic and I stopped trying to replicate my old favorite foods.  I enjoyed and embraced the process of pouring over cookbooks and looking for recipes online of new foods to try and experiment with.  In our house it became somewhat of a new adventure, "what are we going to try today" and with every new dish we tried, we all voted.  Did we like it?  Would we make it again?  Was it a train wreck?  If we liked it and would make it again, it made it's way onto a recipe card in my personal cookbook. 

 

It has been six months of being gluten free and what I eat and the recipes I make bears little resemblance to what I ate a year ago.  There are still some family favorites that were gluten free to begin with and those didn't need to change.  But we now have lots of new favorites to choose from. 

 

There are some surprises along the way.  A year ago if someone told me that my family's favorite meal contained brussel sprouts and my kids would actually "beg" me to make a meal with brussel sprouts, I would have laughed in your face.  Yes, now I and my family eat brussel sprouts and like them. 

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ashleyld Rookie

thanks! I guess i knew it was normal.. ;) so far the kids really love chex! LOL and we have been gluten-free this week. (not much different from our typical diet) 

Its just really hard telling a 3 year old she cant have her favorite cookies anymore because they will hurt her belly. I know it will get better overtime, it just hurts my heart for her :(

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BlessedMommy Rising Star

If you get set up with gluten free flour, you can make her some really great cookies.

 

Enjoy Life chocolate chips are gluten free and are produced in a gluten free facility.

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ashleyld Rookie

Thank you! I have been on pinterest a lot finding gluten-free meals and treats. they all look amazing.

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mamaw Community Regular

The loss  of  gluten  in our lives  is  very similar  to loosing  a loved  one.. We  go through  all the  stages  of  loss .. From  what  your  mother  taught  you as  a young  child  on  what & how to  eat  has  now  become  off  limits...I  always  felt  like  part  of  me  got  lost  when going  gluten-free....  you  know "wheat  is  the staff of      life" well boy  is  that  so  wrong! but  that's  is  what  I was  taught so  I  think  a  part  of  my being  has  gone forever.... so  with that  being  said  ,, we  go  through all  the  emotional  feelings  of  anger, loss,  pain,  denial . bargaining  & finally  great  health.....

But  what  comes  with  all that emotion  is  a healthy happy long  life .... there is light at  the end of the tunnel.....

 

Look  here  under  recipes  , we have  some  of the best  cooks/bakers  right  here.....

 

For  your  children  try to keep  them  excited  about all the new  things  they will be able  to  make.... There  are plenty  of  ways  to make  them  &  the  new  lifestyle   interesting......  Our  kid  was 2 1/2  when  going  gluten-free  the other  was  7-8  both  are in high  school now  ..... we  matched  everything  the  school  served  along  with  all the  parties... Kids  never  felt deprived  or  left  out...

It all takes  time   but  you to  will get  to a better  place....

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ashleyld Rookie

The loss  of  gluten  in our lives  is  very similar  to loosing  a loved  one.. We  go through  all the  stages  of  loss .. From  what  your  mother  taught  you as  a young  child  on  what & how to  eat  has  now  become  off  limits...I  always  felt  like  part  of  me  got  lost  when going  gluten-free....  you  know "wheat  is  the staff of      life" well boy  is  that  so  wrong! but  that's  is  what  I was  taught so  I  think  a  part  of  my being  has  gone forever.... so  with that  being  said  ,, we  go  through all  the  emotional  feelings  of  anger, loss,  pain,  denial . bargaining  & finally  great  health.....

But  what  comes  with  all that emotion  is  a healthy happy long  life .... there is light at  the end of the tunnel.....

 

Look  here  under  recipes  , we have  some  of the best  cooks/bakers  right  here.....

 

For  your  children  try to keep  them  excited  about all the new  things  they will be able  to  make.... There  are plenty  of  ways  to make  them  &  the  new  lifestyle   interesting......  Our  kid  was 2 1/2  when  going  gluten-free  the other  was  7-8  both  are in high  school now  ..... we  matched  everything  the  school  served  along  with  all the  parties... Kids  never  felt deprived  or  left  out...

It all takes  time   but  you to  will get  to a better  place....

Thank you so much for your response <3

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shadowicewolf Proficient

Is it normal to mourn my loss of freedom? I guess thats what it is. I am really sad and have been since i got my daughters results. I got really emotional cleaning out our cabinets. Thinking about all the things that need to be replaced. 

I also have the anxiety waiting for My and the rest of my families results. 

anyone else feel like this just after a diagnosis?

Very normal.

 

However, I will say, three years after switching to a gluten free diet, that I miss tomatoes more than i do anything with gluten.

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ashleyld Rookie

I eat lots of tomatoes? Why cant you have tomatoes?

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BlessedMommy Rising Star

Don't worry, tomatoes are fine for a gluten free diet. :)

 

But some people have problems with nightshades as well as gluten. (tomatoes are part of the nightshade family)

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shadowicewolf Proficient

I eat lots of tomatoes? Why cant you have tomatoes?

I'm allergic to them. :ph34r:

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ashleyld Rookie

Don't worry, tomatoes are fine for a gluten free diet. :)

 

But some people have problems with nightshades as well as gluten. (tomatoes are part of the nightshade family)

 

OOOHHH okay! My DD must have that problem. She will not eat a tomato ever. she steers clear.

I'm allergic to them. :ph34r:

Aww thats too bad! My niece is allergic to them as well

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Telith Newbie

I was vegetarian when I found out I inherited Celiacs from my dad, and because of the supplies locally and my own schedule I had to remove Gluten and add back in meat.  It was an emotional time. I may or may not have started crying in the grocery store's candy aisle because I just couldn't remember what was safe and what wasn't and all I wanted was a snack for movie night....

 

It's a stressful transition, but it gets better first as you heal, then as it becomes a reflex and you gain confidence in your abilities.  I still haven't made a truly perfect crab rangoon, but my boyfriend is regularly jealous of my ability to create asian cuisine and demands to know the secrets of sushi making.  Starting with naturally gluten free food and meals helped me more than searching for that one replacement for my favorite gluten filled food.

I also swear by my rice cooker, and ate a lot of rice porridge for the first six months as I relearned how to shop and cook for myself.

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FruitEnthusiast Enthusiast

Its just really hard telling a 3 year old she cant have her favorite cookies anymore because they will hurt her belly. I know it will get better overtime, it just hurts my heart for her :(

 

I can completely relate to how you feel, and your three year old too. It's a painful adjustment for any age. She's so young though, after she adjusts, it may seem like just the way things are. She won't have many years of forming habits to combat. I'm not downplaying the difficulty of the adjustment stage at all, but her age could really work in her favor in the long run!

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ashleyld Rookie

Crying again. My middle daughter just had a positive for celiac.  :( 

We will be better. I know. this is so hard!

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nvsmom Community Regular

((HUGS))  :(

 

Yeah. It was a bit tough at first. I splurged on gluten-free treat foods for a while just to make myself feel better, like I wasn't missing anything.

 

I still do miss the convenience of gluten-free foods for my children.  Like many kids, they are picky eaters so we rarely ever eat out because they would not be happy with a salad, or a chunk of meat with veggies.  I used to get take out pizza once a week on busy nights, and not have to worry about packing snacks if we are out (we could simply order fries or pizza somewhere) and I miss that lack of planning, but we do all feel much better now... a few months into the gluten-free diet and the trade-off will be more satisfying.

 

Best wishes.

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luvrdeo Apprentice

What a bummer for you!  It's been almost 2 years for me, and the convenience factor is probably what I miss most.  I also have dreams of eating things I shouldn't have...a normal sandwich, a slice of pizza, pretzels - I wake up mortified, because every time I take a bite of whatever it is that has gluten, I start spitting it out and losing it because I know what it does to me.  It's funny how food can take over the way it does!  I went to strick paleo trying to control my gut issues that still exist, and I've found a lot of good ways to not feel so deprived :)  It does get easier!  Best of luck to you and your family...we all feel for you!

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mamaw Community Regular

So  will now the  whole family be gluten free? Honestly  for us  it made  it  easier.. NOt  that  we  wanted  any of the kids  to  have  any illness.. we  all want  the perfect  healthy  child...Convenience  is  what  we all miss  no matter how long  we've  had  celiac...

It  does  & will get  better... throw  yourself  into  it  &  you to  will get  to a better  place....

 I hope  you enjoy  baking  because  it is  so much less expensive    &  get  those  kids  involved too.. At  3  ours  could  read a labels & look  for words.  wheat, rye, barley,,,,, they  felt  so good   like  a big  person.....hard to believe  but  it  can be  fun  with kids....

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Crying again. My middle daughter just had a positive for celiac.  :( 

We will be better. I know. this is so hard!

I will say that I was overwhelmed when my youngest was DX, but it felt better when the oldest joined her with a DX.  Now they weren't alone.  And the oldest couldn't be pissed that the baby was forcing all this change in the house.  It worked really well for us.  And now my middle kid will automatically ask if any food has "gwooten" in it to make sure it won't hurt his sisters' bellies.

 

It gets better.  I promise.  Get your cries out now and then power up.  Once you get your bearings this process just runs itself.

 

I will say that I still miss fast food runs when we're going from activity to activity.  McDonalds food tastes horrible, but the convenience was so awesome!  But you know what makes up for that ability to eat junky food?  Not hearing my baby scream in pain all night...and my oldest curled over in pain for the millionth time.

 

You're going to rock this!  Just wait and see how far you'll be in six months. :)

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FruitEnthusiast Enthusiast

So sorry you're having more difficult news on top of what you've already learned :( I remember feeling relieved right at first to know what was wrong, then pretty quickly that changed into feeling completely overwhelmed with the changes I would be facing. It can really hit you like a freight train.

 

The practical part of making changes, all the new information, and the loss of foods you've come to count on is so hard to face. It is a mourning period just like anyone would experience after any kind of loss.

 

I just have myself to deal with, and I can only imagine how that would be compounded with your kids needs to think of as well. I really feel for you, it must seem like too much all at once.

 

It does get so much easier as you figure out the solutions that will work for you. I doesn't seem like it at first, but it really does. You'll get the routine down. There is so much knowledge and experience on this site with questions that come up, and a lot of support too, so you don't have to go through it alone.

 

Just take one day at a time. You will get there! :)

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