[munkee41182]

Sigh....the title says enough. This weekend was my mother's surprise b-day party. It was my responsibility to take mamma dukes out and keep her occupied while my father and my husband set up the party. Well we went to TGI Fridays (first mistake). Ordered potato skins (second mistake) and mom wanted spinach dip (third mistake). I wasn't going to say no to the b-day girl....but I should have said no to myself with eating that crap. Ugh.....so now I've been bumbling like an idiot since Saturday....and I've been craving gluten. It's like I'm adicted to the stuff and can't get away from it. She sent us home a lot of left overs to bring to work (cake and cheesecake). Can't fricking eat those....and now it's almost like I have the shakes from trying not to eat them. There were two slices of cheesecake left at work so I dumped soap all over it and tossed it in the trash...and the cake I've given away to friends, but for some reason they keep wanting us to have some...."in case I want any." They all know I'm celiac.....UGH!

So now I've been spacey...ADD like....studdering....heart burn, constipation and now my throat feels like it's ripped apart. It's different than when my throat will hurt as I'm getting sick.

Why can't I stop? I want to...I hate feeling like this....

[Jestgar]

I'm impressed that you dumped soap before tossing. Good for you!

[munkee41182]

Well because of the way the trash can is....the container would have just sat on top. Although sounds gross - I didn't trust myself with it just sitting there. And I walk by it every time I get water. So to be safe...I soaped it. I just need my system cleared out.

I'm just angry at myself right now for letting myself get this bad....Grrrrr