Selfish/lazy To Stay In Bed?
Posted 21 June 2012 - 03:57 PM
I've been sleeping or otherwise in bed on my laptop for three days now. I have no idea what "got" me but i think it was the gluten-free soup and bread at the little crumby cafe I risked eating at in Oxford. I didn't trust them with CC to save my life but was hungry and with company so took the risk since the ingredients themselves were all fine. . .
I want to cycle for 30 days straight in about eight days. (been planning for months.) haven't trained properly at all and this is cutting in to my preparation time. I also have to clean up this flat and get ready for the trip (if I don't postpone it, which I might)
... plus I have art I promised to make for people, writing to do, but my head hurts at an unable to think kind of level
every day I spend in bed without exercising or accomplishing anything makes me feel like a fattening lazy slob worthless human being and I'm lonely and want to shout and scream that gluten is poison and the world is dying.
luckily, no reflux, which was usually my major symptom?? in fact, nothing gastrointestinal at all except mild constipation and gas at first which is gone now. bit weird. but I know I'm not sick with a virus or something because no flu symptoms, no fever. congestion at levels it's been at for weeks.
seems like my autoimmune symptoms change every week (well every time i get sick it's different)
how do you ever know what's going on, what got you, how paranoid you have to be and when you can relax and when will i ever stop wanting to throw up when i think of food? when will i stop wanting to scream and kick donut stands over in the grocery store? throw bread down the aisles in rage? (actually did this once when they put gluten bread in the gluten free section, I threw it at the regular bread and stormed off)
HOW LONG DOES IT LAST. oh man I'm not going to have D for a week again like i did last time am i? that reaction was delayed by like 7 days it seemed. this reaction started after 1 day if my calculations are correct (imcac). guess i will know over the weekend
god this poetry is vile is it not
soy-free 30 March 2011
dairy-free 30 August 2011 (roughly)
22 yrs old
diagnosed Celiac through biopsy and blood test (WAY positive) as of 25 Feb 2011
Posted 21 June 2012 - 04:40 PM
Or just accept that you are healing your body, which is really hard work. Realize that every minute you give yourself to recover means that much more energy for your trip.
And next time bring a friend with a video camera when you go bread shopping.
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Posted 21 June 2012 - 06:02 PM
Posted 22 June 2012 - 03:27 AM
Getting out of bed and being mom isn't an option. So...yes, I too feel guilty and lazy. But oh well, nothing you can do.
Hope you feel better in time for your trip!
Posted 22 June 2012 - 05:01 AM
If you haven't been able to train for the 30 straight days of bike riding don't beat yourself up if you need to put off the trip. Putting it off is better than pushing a still healing body beyond it's physical limits.
I do hope you get over being glutened soon. Do what you feel you can do, spend a bit of time outside if you can and keep in mind that this will pass and you will feel better before too long.
"I will try again tommorrow" (Mary Anne Radmacher)
celiac 49 years - Misdiagnosed for 45
Blood tested and repeatedly negative
Diagnosed by Allergist with elimination diet and diagnosis confirmed by GI in 2002
Misdiagnoses for 15 years were IBS-D, ataxia, migraines, anxiety, depression, fibromyalgia, parathesias, arthritis, livedo reticularis, hairloss, premature menopause, osteoporosis, kidney damage, diverticulosis, prediabetes and ulcers, dermatitis herpeformis
All bold resoved or went into remission with proper diagnosis of Celiac November 2002
Some residual nerve damage remains as of 2006- this has continued to resolve after eliminating soy in 2007
Mother died of celiac related cancer at 56
Twin brother died as a result of autoimmune liver destruction at age 15
Children 2 with Ulcers, GERD, Depression, , 1 with DH, 1 with severe growth stunting (male adult 5 feet)both finally diagnosed Celiac through blood testing and 1 with endo 6 months after Mom
Positive to Soy and Casien also Aug 2007
Gluten Sensitivity Gene Test Aug 2007
HLA-DQB1 Molecular analysis, Allele 1 0303
HLA-DQB1 Molecular analysis, Allele 2 0303
Serologic equivalent: HLA-DQ 3,3 (Subtype 9,9)
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