This may be why your story hit a nerve for me . I am only 18 months into my " official " diagnosis ( even though I have been gluten free for 3 years)
The pain and suffering is still quite fresh in my mind ( and body). I am still too close to the pain and suffering not to be emotional. And the anger, the anger of going 40+ years mis and un dignosised still lingers,,, and some days like today it is quite intense
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I know that pain lingers. The impact on our families and ourselves for all those years can be significant. I live with the what if's every day and it is hard. I try not to think too much of all that I missed as my children were growing up, all the things I couldn't do with them or for them. Somedays are harder than others but I try to think of what is ahead as much as I can. I am one of those annoying people that think everything we go through has a purpose and makes us the person we are today. I may have lost a lot but I gained patience and empathy and I think all those years spent slowly dieing has given me an ability to really enjoy and appretiate each day I have now.
I hope you are able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, forgive those idiot doctors and those that did not understand how sick you really were. For me the hardest part was and is forgiving myself for not being the person I knew was hiding behind all that pain. Since diagnosis I have slowly been able to recover who I really am but it took time. You also will get to be that person that this disease hid for years but it does take time.









