Not only my self esteem but now also my career as a personal trainer and nutritionist suffered, along with my health, and I felt completely depressed. We even moved 3000 miles away from our home so I could take a job working at a Wellness Center, thinking it t was going to cure me from this unknown ailment that had now ruined my life. Needless to say the center didn't cure me and I diagnosed myself with a gluten allergy less than a year ago. I was so sick for the pat few years and had so much pain in my body that I couldn't walk some days, none of my clothes fit, I didn't have a job, and was so isolated from the world I once new.
Only one thing stayed the same from the beginning to the end. I had a great boyfriend who loved me and supported me while I went to countless doctors, and frequently changed doctors because of the misdiagnoses I received. The hours that added up to days that I spent talking about health problems and doing research trying to figure out what was wrong with me could have drove anyone away, but all I cared about was being healthy again. The days that he had to push me on the grocery cart in the store or lift me out of the car cause I couldn't walk, were some very dark and lonely days for me, I had unwillingly become someone I had no control over.
Then things slowly started changing as I learned about Celiacs Disease and I stopped eating gluten, and I slowly started to regain my health. Anyone that does or has at one point felt hopeless like there is no light at the end of the tunnel know that life is not over. Even though it might change things for a while once you learn how to live your life being gluten free things gets better, your health improves, your depression goes away and you can actually feel the sun shining and the hear birds singing again.It doesn't mean that it is easy, it just means it gets easier and you have a better perspective on life than you did before, and now can appreciate the small things that you may have taken for granted....(like walking)!
Today I ran on the treadmill for the first time in who knows how long and this morning I fit into a pair of jeans that I haven't worn in over 2 years!!! I am finally well enough that we can move out of this place, and move on with our lives that have been stuck in limbo for so long. I know I won't ever be able to eat gluten again and dining out with friends with no worries is out of the question, so life is different now. Some things from my old life may never be the same, but I can now have some of my previous life back back like exercising and not feeling ill all the time, and I can work on building upon those things to start a new life.
I am so happy to share this good news because there is so much hope for all of us!!! Have a blessed day!