You know, I have forgotten about how emotional I was at first. I tell you this not to brag, but to let you know that it's temporary. I honestly NEVER feel sorry for myself anymore.
Oh I did at first! I cried and I ranted. I avoided the grocery store and I avoided eating with my friends. I threw back my head and shouted to the skies.
And then I got used to it. Now I shop at the grocery store and laugh with my friends who work there. I go to restaurants with friends and just drink coffee while they eat, but I enjoy their company. I go to dinner at friends houses, but I bring my own food and nobody thinks a thing of it. I feel GOOD - too good to even think about how hard this was at first.
And given time, you will too. In the meantime, threads like this are theraputic. Get the emotions out. Share them with folks who know exactly what you're going through. This is the best support group in the world. And in another few months, you will be giving that support to other newbies who are feeling down.
Great big ((((((HUGS)))))) to all of you who are having a hard time right now, and great big (((((HUGS))))) to all of the long-time members who held ME up when I needed it.