A few nights ago I had a shocking episode of diarrhea,.... It was like passing gas, but I knew that it was more. By the time I got to the toilet I had a small mess to dispose of.... that got me to think about all of the myriad symptoms I have had lately. Symptoms that seem to be getting worse. Is this more than Celiac disease? what is happening..... It is sending me down that spiral to depression.
All of the worst of my symptoms are returning,.... severe and extreme fatigue, acid stomach nausea, a shaky feeling, achy all over, headaches, flaking skin in specific areas (nose and eyebrows)..... I cannot tell if my stomach is asking for food or not. I am on the verge of breaking down in tears.
Top all of that off with new nonsense from my workplace.... I have been told that, during a specific week, our department is "forbidden" from making any kind of medical appointment, as that will be viewed as avoiding a specific job. I am in the beginning stages of worsening symptoms, and have a doctor appointment next week which was to be the start of figuring out what my body is trying to tell me.
I am so upset, I don't know if I should eat something, or sleep, I don't know what to do.....
My job involves a great deal of travel, and maintaining a gluten free diet is very difficult --- too often there is nothing I can eat that is nutritious and that tastes good to me.
I am really struggling to deal with everything. I manage to do laundry and pay my bills, and somehow I work on the weekdays --I don't know how I do that, because I spend the weekends doing as little as possible due to exhaustion. How I get through a work week is a mystery to me.... I must be on autopilot. That can't be good.
Thank you for giving me a place to vent my frustration.
I wish that I could find a doctor who cared about figuring this out and actually helping me.