JoyMurphy

I tried to write a response, and I lost it....
I wanted to write to allof you, but I don't have that much stamina.   You have all moved me to tears.  It is nice not to feel so alone.   I have felt so isolated. Laying on my couch for months, not being able to move, watching my friends drive by, water their plants, and no one stopped to visit.   They all thought I was faking it, or it was in my head, i was depressed, stressed or unhappy in my marraige.  I think even my husband believed that it was stress.  He never denounced it.  My dad never doubted me.  He knew there was something wrong.  
One friend texted me when she heard the diagnosis, " I heard the good news!!". I said, " what was that? That I have celiac disease? That I have the same rare tumor Steve jobs had?  Or that im not just stressed??"
The next week my cat had to be put to sleep, it was sick and old, and I will spare the gross details.  This friend responded with so much concern over the dead cat, and asked " what really happened?". I told her, I'm not sure, I think it was stress!"
The only people that got it were my friends that were nurses and those with celiacs.  
I am so glad to be here.
I t amazes me how long a glistening can last.  I was bad the last few days, today is up and down.  It's hard for others to understand it.  I know bc I used to be one of those others who thought, " what's the big deal.".  Oh, I get it now, and I am so ashamed I ever thought that before.
Thank you all