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      Frequently Asked Questions About Celiac Disease   09/30/2015

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I been gluten free for since October. Every single day my stomach still hurts after eating. Could it possibly be anxiety? I can feel (internally, not with my hands) that when I lay down the bloating is right on top of my stomach so I'm guessing that's my intestines. I had a negative blood test, a positive endoscopy, and genetic testing came back that's I do carry the genes for celiac. If it's celiac than why isn't my gluten free diet working?? I am not getting cross contaminated I shop at whole foods and I specifically buy only products that's are specially made gluten free. Right now I just ate a gluten free bagel and my intestines feel like someone rubbed them with sandpaper and i feel like there is a giant ball slowly inflating. I look like in freaking pregnant half the time. I accepted this crap but I'm getting very angry with why i can't feel better. I can't live my life like this anymore. I don't know what else to do my doctor just tells me to stay on the gluten free diet. I can't work and i don't even think you can go on disability for this... I have to support my son i can't have my fianc

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I been gluten free for since October. Every single day my stomach still hurts after eating. Could it possibly be anxiety? I can feel (internally, not with my hands) that when I lay down the bloating is right on top of my stomach so I'm guessing that's my intestines. I had a negative blood test, a positive endoscopy, and genetic testing came back that's I do carry the genes for celiac. If it's celiac than why isn't my gluten free diet working?? I am not getting cross contaminated I shop at whole foods and I specifically buy only products that's are specially made gluten free. Right now I just ate a gluten free bagel and my intestines feel like someone rubbed them with sandpaper and i feel like there is a giant ball slowly inflating. I look like in freaking pregnant half the time. I accepted this crap but I'm getting very angry with why i can't feel better. I can't live my life like this anymore. I don't know what else to do my doctor just tells me to stay on the gluten free diet. I can't work and i don't even think you can go on disability for this... I have to support my son i can't have my fianc

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Is it possible that you also have another allergy/intolerance as well? Are you still eating dairy? Try cutting dairy out and see how you feel - that's often a common problem for Celiacs as well...

In the meantime - hugs! I know it's a crappy feeling and I hope you find a solution quickly!

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Hi, Heidi. I'm sorry to hear that you are still sick and so frustrated. I totally agree with Melissa to try cutting out dairy. The other thing that comes to mind is fructose malabsorption. You might look into that if cutting out dairy doesn't help.

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Thanks guys. I been making homemade chicken and rice soup and I seem to feel better the next day. But anything other than rice and steamed vegetables and salad seem to make me feel horrible. I know I can't tolerate soy and dairy that well or eggs. Can people be intolerant to sugar? Candy and sweets make me feel really bad too.

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Thanks guys. I been making homemade chicken and rice soup and I seem to feel better the next day. But anything other than rice and steamed vegetables and salad seem to make me feel horrible. I know I can't tolerate soy and dairy that well or eggs. Can people be intolerant to sugar? Candy and sweets make me feel really bad too.

Absolutely!! Omg, eating sugars messes me up so bad, just as bad as gluten does! Its hard bc I have Such a sweet tooth, but I can't tolerate any of them. Well that's not true - I can eat what diabetics eat sweetener-wise, and do well. (well I could until I developed issues with corn and learned that my go-to sweetener fructose is derived from that and now messes me up!) I've been off sugar for 25 years and getting off it changed my life. Seriously. Try investigating diabetic-approved sweets and see if you feel differently. If not, eliminate it entirely.

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If you can't eat sugar well, you really, really, really need to look into fructose malabsorption. Chicken and rice soup is very low fructose if you use white rice. So are most steamed veggies and salad greens.

The Wikipedia article on fructose malaborption isn't too bad.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fructose_malabsorption

This site is by a woman with fructose malabsorption who set up a wiki for reference.

http://hedra.pbworks.com/w/page/11325076/FrontPage

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If you can't eat sugar well, you really, really, really need to look into fructose malabsorption. Chicken and rice soup is very low fructose if you use white rice. So are most steamed veggies and salad greens.

The Wikipedia article on fructose malaborption isn't too bad.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fructose_malabsorption

This site is by a woman with fructose malabsorption who set up a wiki for reference.

http://hedra.pbworks.com/w/page/11325076/FrontPage

I find fructose malabsorption very interesting, but it's different from what I have in that fructose was a go-to for me for many years to avoid glucose and other sugars. It's just with my recent corn issues that I can no longer tolerate it, as it's corn-derived. I post this so that the OP understands that there are a couple different types of sugar intolerances, one where you avoid fructose, the other where fructose is fine as it causes a slower rise in blood sugar levels (which is along the lines of what diabetics require from sweeteners). There are a host of foods I avoid due to their glycemic impact but it's too lengthy to go into here. If you discover in the end that your sugar issues align with what I've described, please do message me and I can send you the whole diet (the other foods will also make you feel lousy too). Good luck :)

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Good point! I'm kind of like you. I crave refined sugar badly, eat too much, end up tired and woozy. I don't think I'm as sensitive because I'm fine with fruit, honey, dates, and other unrefined sugars in reasonable amounts. My mom has fructose malabsorption and gets pain and bloating from fructose. It's pretty funny because I'm reaching for honey for my coffee and she always has a jar of dextrose. :lol:

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That's interesting I'll have to look into that. I can't tolerate popcorn, tortillas, raw corn, without getting a severe case of indigestion and flatulence and nausea. When i drink soda, same way. I was ok before but now lately, I'm extremely sensitive to everything! And i get scared because i don't know which symptoms are normal for celiac and which ones aren't. I have no one to really ask. I'm the only one in my family whose been diagnosed with it. I believe my mom and brother could possibly have it because my mom, most of my life, has had alot of my symptoms now that i look back. But she refuses to believe it's possible. So I'm kind of left in the dark here. Sometimes i just feel like staring in the dark. What if its not even celiac disease. How the crap do you tell? Negative blood work, there was something positive in my endoscopy (said a raises number of something indicating that there is possible celiac disease) and the genetic said positive for the celiac genes. But then it also said anyone could have those genes! Even normal people walking around who don't have it. I never get a clear answer :[ and i spent all that stinkin money getting tests done to get such an unclear answer.

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I was very sick when I was finally diagnosed. I was regularly not making it to the bathroom. I couldn't leave the house without fear of a huge embarrassment. I couldn't work. I couldn't take care of my kids properly. At first I felt so much better just eliminating cereal and bread I was elated. Then I realized how much harder it was. I eliminated all the other things and found that I was still reacting to gluten free foods which most of the people who post on this forum don't react to. I couldn't figure out what was going on, and I was still quite sick.

Finally my GI doc told me that some celiacs react to smaller amounts of gluten than others. Some can't even tolerate the tiny amounts allowed into gluten free foods. They are better off eating a diet consisting of produce and meats, a whole foods diet. Not one purchased at the Whole Foods store, but one that doesn't come out of a package or jar. That was the beginning of returning to better health for me. I'm doing better now than I was in my teens.

I am careful about keeping a food journal and only adding one new food per week. Still, sometimes a previously safe food will become unsafe due to some change made by the suppliers, and then it is very hard to figure out what. I have to do careful elimination/challenge diets of everything in my diet, hoping that I guess the right thing before I get too sick.

Your problems could be one of the other things referred to above, or something else, but you should consider super sensitivity to low levels of gluten too. It is pretty easy to find out. For a couple of weeks eat only produce and unprocessed meat. Keep away from produce grown on straw like mushrooms. If that improves things, then you may have to look into very low level cc more carefully.

I hope you figure out what is causing your continued problems. I know how frustrating it can be to remain sick and not have the answers you need to get better.

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That's interesting I'll have to look into that. I can't tolerate popcorn, tortillas, raw corn, without getting a severe case of indigestion and flatulence and nausea. When i drink soda, same way.

Hmmm, it definitely sounds like corn could be an issue for you, and thats a common one. Is the soda you drink sweetened with high fructose corn syrup? Like I said before it's common to have a number of sensitivities come to light once you remove gluten, I don't know why. Just last night I had another a-ha moment when I realized I'm having problems with onions! I'd thought I was having digestive issues because I was eating a lot of beans - I figured it was normal to be gassy if you're eating a lot of them - but when hubby prepared the same beans without onions (he just forgot to add them as he usually does!) I didn't have any problems. It was the onions all along and I had no idea. I've been suffering for 2 months for no reason! So we basically have to be detectives and sometimes along the way the answers just come when you least expect it. Hope you have some more a-ha moments of your own soon :).

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It looks like you *might* have an additional intolerance? The corn sounds like a likely one? If sweets bother you, the fructose might be something to consider too?

I wonder about the fructose malabsorption too, for myself. In reading the link I found a few foods that I've had bad reactions to.

I also wanted to mention..if you have damage in your intestine you may react badly to the hard to digest alternate grains? Your mention of eating a bagel and not feeling good could be that..or what did you have ON the bagel?

Some of this is so tricky to figure out, and some of the reactions are just because you need to do some healing. Are you keeping a food journal? It can help sort things out.

I completely understand your frustration!

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Hmmm, it definitely sounds like corn could be an issue for you, and thats a common one. Is the soda you drink sweetened with high fructose corn syrup? Like I said before it's common to have a number of sensitivities come to light once you remove gluten, I don't know why. Just last night I had another a-ha moment when I realized I'm having problems with onions! I'd thought I was having digestive issues because I was eating a lot of beans - I figured it was normal to be gassy if you're eating a lot of them - but when hubby prepared the same beans without onions (he just forgot to add the. As he usually does!) I didn't have any problems. It was the onions all along and I had no idea. I've been suffering for 2 months for no reason! So we basically have to be detectives and sometimes along the way the answers just come when you least expect it. Hope you have some more a-ha moments of your own soon :).

AHA! Onions. Another piece to the puzzle? :o

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Not sure if anyone mentioned this, but you may ask to have your stomach acid levels checked. This was happening to me ALL the time. And since you seem to feel better when you only have a salad or something else very low protein, it could be that your acid levels are too low (a very common problem for those with celiac). Once I started taking a HCl supplement with meals (I eat mostly protein and veggies anyway, so I take it with every meal), I noticed an amazing difference. I'm not sure why most traditional doctors tell everyone that it must be HIGH stomach acid causing their symptoms - they will tell you to take prilosec or whatever without even doing any testing. For some, that is the problem. But for others, like me, it was the opposite. The symptoms are almost identical. I did a google search on low stomach acid vs. high stomach acid - came across some great information. Hope you feel better soon!

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AHA! Onions. Another piece to the puzzle? :o

My mom who has the fructose malabsorption reacts terribly to onions. They have a fructose polymer called fructans in them.

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I don't do too good with onions either. I'm on prilosec for too much stomach acid and I been addicted to pepto Bismol and it backs me up terribly and it feels horrible. I think it's alot of things. What about leaky gut? Could that be an issue with me as well? Alot of the time probiitics send me running to the bathroom and I usually thought that it's just cleaning me out until I read that to be a symptom of leaky gut as well. I actually have alot of those symptoms but I don't know how to fix it. I have to wait for new insurance to go back to the doctor.

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AHA! Onions. Another piece to the puzzle? :o

Yes! You'd think at this stage it wouldn't surprise me but it's always the foods you least suspect, isn't it. I have to research what's related to onions and make sure there aren't other things lurking...

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Hmmm, I don't know anything about leaky gut. Anyone else?

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I don't do too good with onions either. I'm on prilosec for too much stomach acid and I been addicted to pepto Bismol and it backs me up terribly and it feels horrible. I think it's alot of things. What about leaky gut? Could that be an issue with me as well? Alot of the time probiitics send me running to the bathroom and I usually thought that it's just cleaning me out until I read that to be a symptom of leaky gut as well. I actually have alot of those symptoms but I don't know how to fix it. I have to wait for new insurance to go back to the doctor.

Heidi,

Somebody above mentioned checking into LOW stomach acid. I would seriously check into this. I was on prilosec, nexium, tums, etc. for years. And even after going gluten-free/CF/SF it didn't completely clear up. Turns on my problem has been low stomach acid. And I had big clues years before but I'd never heard of such a thing. Now I take HCL with digestive enzymes with my meals, and I haven't had to touch pepto, tums, or any of the other things in over two years.

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Hi, so sorry you're not feeling better! I've read so much, though, about people starting the gluten-free diet and then finding out that other things are reacting badly for them. Some people can't handle the gluten-free replacement foods like bread, pasta and bagels-- it's just too much starchy weirdness for your body to recognize that it's different from wheat.

One explanation I've seen, is that your body is so inflamed and wrecked up, that you just need a break from everything it has become sensitive to, to give it a chance to heal. The one really good "elimination" diet is also called "rare foods" or "caveman" diet, and it says basically you are better off eating things your body is not used to ( and therefore has not developed a sensitivity to) for 1-3 months. That way it has time to settle down and heal. Then you keep a food diary and add the foods back in, one at a time, and watch for your reactions to it. That way you can tell exactly what it is that bothers you, other than gluten.

It sucks to have such a limited diet for 3 months, but on the other hand, it's ONLY 3 months, compared to misery for the rest of your life.

Also, once your body has calmed down, often you can start tolerating things again that used to bother you before. You might be able to handle corn, dairy, etc. after a year or two.

Here's a link to that elimination diet article: http://www.drcranton.com/elimination_diet.htm

Hope you feel better soon!

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Thanks Avalon

that's a great piece of advice. I will definitely try that! And the low stomach acid I will ask my doctor. Its confusing because I have acid and a sore throat when u wake up sometimes. Wouldn't that mean I have too much acid?

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Its confusing because I have acid and a sore throat when u wake up sometimes. Wouldn't that mean I have too much acid?

Not necessarily. Here is a link to one article. According to some other things I've read scattered around, low HCL can cause a condition where the sphincter at the top of the stomach can loosen up, causing the regurgitation of stomach acid. At one point I had started waking up sometimes choking on my own stomach acid after I would inhale it while sleeping. Terrified me every time. However, what I would suggest would be to try some enzymes (stopping the prilosec during the trial obviously) and see how you feel. If it appears to help, next time you visit a doctor, bring this up along with your experiment and ask to be tested for Hypochlorhydria. I have a specific brand that I've found works well for me, and if you like I'll post the link. I prefer this specific brand because I've never experienced any cross-contamination issues for gluten, and it also contains some other digestive enzymes.

On a related note though, don't take more than the recommended supplement amount as too much stomach acid can (obviously) cause damage.

"According to Jonathan Wright, MD, another cause of heartburn can be too little stomach acid. This may seem to be a paradox, but based on the clinical experience of a few doctors such as Dr. Wright, supplementing with betaine HCl (a compound that contains hydrochloric acid) often relieves the symptoms of heartburn and improves digestion, at least in people who have hypochlorhydria (low stomach acid). The amount of betaine HCl used varies with the size of the meal and with the amount of protein ingested. Typical amounts recommended by doctors range from 600 to 2,400 mg per meal. Use of betaine HCl should be monitored by a healthcare practitioner and should be considered only for indigestion sufferers who have been diagnosed with hypochlorhydria." (http://www.evitamins.com/encyclopedia/assets/health-condition/indigestion-heartburn-and-low-stomach-acidity/vitamins-and-supplements)

"Hypochlorhydria arises when the stomach is unable to produce hydrochloric acid (stomach acid). It is a greatly overlooked cause of problems - to the extent that in the UK at least nobody is testing or looking for it. It is especially common in those with ME/CFS/FM, and is known to be associated with childhood asthma." Dr. Sarah Myhill, MD. (http://www.prohealth.com/library/showarticle.cfm?libid=13388)

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Did your stomach ever have spasms? I've woken up with my stomach lurching like I'm throwing up but I'm not. Or I have woken up swallowing a little bit of vomit. Its horrible

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No, my vision wasn't blurry, but there was something else incredibly wrong with me. I take pride in reading and enjoying my foreign programs in which I have to read subtitles, but for some reason, I just couldn't focus. I couldn't read. I couldn't watch TV. I couldn't do anything that required a decent level of mental acuity. I brushed it off and figured it would probably go away in a couple of days. When I walked to the liquor store the next night, I noticed something strange. The halos around the street lights seemed larger and more pronounced. Although I'm not sure what it was, if that was even the problem in the first place, I knew something was wrong. My anxiety was the worst it had ever been. I hadn't been to a doctor in years, let alone care about my health. Most of my anxiety had to do with my surroundings, but suddenly I was compelled to google my symptoms. I had a strange feeling behind my eye and I started to see rings around lights. I thought I had glaucoma. The visual symptoms became worse. I started to see visual migranes, hard to explain, but they're like patches in my vision, kind of like visual fog but larger and more pronounced, and with afterimages whenever I see lights. It's aggravating to say the least. Anyways, I had about a week of these symptoms before I dragged myself to the eye doctor and told her I was convinced I had glaucoma. She looked at my eyes and said they were perfectly fine. I was a tiny bit nearsighted, but I had enough visual prowess to drive or doing anything else without having problems. This came as a surprise to me,  I couldn't even read or watch my favorite movies! I was convinced that all of this was just anxiety at that point. Loss of concentration didn't seem that bad. I was just glad I wasn't going blind. Then I REALLY wouldn't be able to watch TV.   A week passes by before I develop another debilitating symptom. Severe neck pain. I woke up one morning and it was agonizing. I'm not sure when I noticed I had tinnitus, but this was aggravated to say the least. The migranes and anxiety reached their peak. At that point I was convinced I had developed some form of meningitis. Falling asleep at night was like passing out after a long day of not being able to do anything. I was having panic attack after panic attack. I thought that it might be a tumor instead and I was convinced that I wouldn't even be alive for 20th birthday. There was a weakness that radiated down my left arm and leg. At this point, I was desperate to get even a month left to live. I was constantly pleading to a god I stopped believing in a long time ago for more time. I went to the doctor for the first time in years, convinced that I had meningitis. Both my grandmother and my GP laughed at the notion. The GP diagnosed it as nerve pain, gave me antibiotics for my constipation, antidiarrheal medicine, and an antianxiety and sent me on my way for a couple weeks. I took the antibiotics for a bit but ended up spilling them into the sink at which point I figured I probably couldn't use them anymore I don't remember any of my gastro symptoms then as i didn't think anything of them. All I can remember is being constipated for days on end, which wasn't very fun either. Eventually, I went back to the GP and she prescribed me elavil for my tinnitus and my nerve pain, which made just about everything that bothered me wither away at that point. The strangest thing, actually, was that my symptoms went away BEFORE I started taking the pills. Of course, I didn't know what happened, but I had a day when my symptoms went away before coming back again and I didn't want to take a chance, so I started the medication right away, and they never did come back. Swell right? WRONG.   I had a happy few months between Late March and August that seemed swell, except that I couldn't quite enjoy things like I used to, and I was saying things to my online friends that made them shy away from me. I was convinced at this point that I was just going crazy. My mother is schizophrenic so I just sort of took it as is and was getting ready to tell my doctor and see if the symptoms would go away if i stopped the pills. I didn't do this in reality, as a matter of fact, I told the GP I felt great and she suggested that I increase the dose from 10mg to 20mg. I didn't do this for a while, but I got into an argument with someone that I was just starting to become friends with and decided that enough was enough. I popped that extra 10mg and was ready to crank it up a notch to keep the depression at bay. It seemed to be working, but about a week later, I began to develop a burning pain under my right rib. Uh-oh! I started to google again, but my anxiety was still pretty much under control. I tried to convince myself I had colon cancer, but it didn't hit me hard until I told the doctor I thought the pills were causing the pain and that I was going to stop taking them. This is pretty much where things took a turn for the worst. One day, after I had a couple corn dogs and french fries, I went to the bathroom to find that my stool was yellow and there was blood. Immediately I panicked and called my GP. A lot of things have scared me these past few months, but none more than that instance. The occult blood test came back negative, what do you know. I was pretty healthy at around 147 pounds, my average weight. I told myself at that point that I would turn my life around before things got any worse. I wanted to go vegetarian and avoid meat for the rest of my life. That seemed like the best option at that point. Well, I was wrong, because I was probably b12 deficient, and where does b12 come from? Yeah.... Well, it probably wasn't colon cancer, so what else could I convince myself it was you ask? Pancreatic cancer. I rolled around in bed, night after night, feeling extremely tired, and at the same time, not being able to sleep. When I closed my eyes I had visions of what my organs would have looked like with cancer spreading everywhere. Other times I would envision my own funeral 2 months later after a very painful death. I was very spaced out. It was beyond brain fog. Not only was I so bloated I couldn't eat, but I just made it worse by taking immodium. After that it was god awful. If I was dying, I just wanted to know what was wrong with me, if I had any fighting chance at that point. I think I went down to 136 at this point. I got the blood test and was prescribed a different antidepressant by my doctor. I waited until my test results came back to take it. By that time, I had dark circles under my eyes and white patches on the insides of my cheeks. I came back to get the results of the test, and to my surprise there was absolutely nothing wrong with me (at least that could be seen from my blood). I already started eating meat again by this point. WBC 8.7 (normal) RBC 4.94 (normal) I wasn't even anemic. I swore that my skin started to yellow. I was constantly checking my eyes and suffering. I decided this was the last straw. I started to take the medication the doctor prescribed me, and I felt great! But a couple days later, I took the full dose and woke up the next morning, not being able to breathe and with a super fast heart rate and dilated pupils. This was my first time in the ER. The docs were dumb as rocks. They told me that it was "just anxiety". I couldn't even feel the move the left side of my body. I nearly died, and those kooks told me that I had anxiety! They made me sit in a chair for 30 minutes while the reaction went away! (not to mention I got the bill recently from that ridiculous debacle and they're trying to charge me $4000 for letting me in the door and sending me out.)   Anyhow I'll summarize the next few months between the ER incident and now, including a 2nd time I landed in the ER, wowee! -Lost 6 more pounds between that point and about a month ago. -Kept taking paxil and had several more reactions similar to the one that put me in the ER. -Learned about b12 deficiency and was convinced I had pernicious anemia for a while. Taking multivitamins staved off some of the symptoms, including the bloating. -Some mulitvitamins I bought actually made me feel worse including making my joints hurt, although this may be actually due to wheat, as i've learned -Fatigue became progressively worse. I've got Lymph nodes raised all over my body and I was sleeping most of the day before I stopped eating gluten entirely -Was constipated for days on end. My bowel movements improved with experimentation, although I still couldn't figure out what the problem was. I knew that things like French Toast would make my stomach hurt, but I didn't draw the conclusion because I was convinced that fatty foods would help me gain all that weight back (It obviously didn't. As a matter of fact it was probably why. I'm still sitting at around 132 but at least I'm not dead or getting worse from what I can gather.) -Extreme brain fog until I started taking large dose of sublingual b12. I play a lot of video games and my coordination was god awful.  -Took a non-sublingual b12 pill which made me bloat big time. I should have checked to see if those pills had wheat. -My hands and feet felt like blocks of ice, and my feet burned when I got in the shower. -Developed Tachycardia. I'm not sure when, but my resting heart rate is unsettling. Doctors said nothing about it -Diagnosed myself with several cancers and had several panic attacks which I used my b12 tablets to quell. -Tried to take Elavil again, and woke up with a strange feeling in my left arm, so I stopped taking it.   I ended up in the ER for the 2nd time a few weeks ago. This time I was sure I was going to get the answer I didn't want to hear. "We've examined your chest X-ray and found cancer spreading throughout your body" or something along those lines. I knew that there had to be something going on. I went in there for chest pain, but I had to tell the GP about what was going on. The weight loss, the abdominal pain that mysteriously disappeared months beforehand after I took the pills. He suggested that it must be some sort of malabsorption/malnutrition that was doing this, and I was convinced that an H Pylori infection was the cause. Anyhow, my chest X ray came back normal, as did my blood test, and when I got home, my grandma suggested that I look into Therapy. (as if that would somehow help with the chronic fatigue and other debilitating symptoms) I had nobody else to turn to, so I emailed my grandma and told her everything that was going on. She told me that she thought I had celiac disease, and so far, the results aren't too bad. I've gotten "glutened" a couple times so far, but my constipation is gone, and I've gained a little bit of my weight back. I'm not even sleeping as much as I was. I'm still going to see a gastro, a dentist, and a derma about my more serious concerns, but overall, I don't feel too crappy. I've even got my appetite back. Anyhow, if you've made it this far, I'm glad, as it has been a really bumpy ride for me. I've still got a lot of health anxiety about cancer, but I finally feel like I'm on the right path. I didn't even think I would be alive right now, especially not at 2 in the morning, with only minor aches and pains. I hope I can eventually get diagnosed and get used to this place.        
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