Daily Life and Compromising

So I was also bidding on this nice impinger oven, I held the high bid by a miracle for almost 20 days, I also had a heated cabinet, a convection oven, and a nice deli case. See I was planning on doing sheet pan meals in the impinger and doing a gluten free/paleo meal delivery service and using the deli case in my bakery. Had customers lined up and everything. LAST 3 hours of that auction, bunch of people came out of no where and started throwing money on everything like crazy. I actually broke down crying when people started throwing 3k+ at the ovens. Like really crush my dreams of getting of disability and being able to work full time time cooking for people.....in the end I got nothing but life beating me with a newspaper like a dog shivering in the corner. Still debating getting a smaller oven for that meal prep thing but will be limited to 4-6 customers a day. And that deli case would be wonderful investment....gg life

After strict elimination diets, etc. I Have learned my almost daily diarrhea since my gluten exposure months ago is not food related...though I did learn if I do not eat constant coconut flour, and high potassium foods....it goes completely liquid spray.  What I did find....it is a flare from my UC to a die off caused by a immune supplement  I am taking for my infection...assuming it is causing die off and D.  I did stop it by accident missing a day to discover the D went away....but my infection went from white/clearish fluid to dark yellow thick stuff in 24 hours then back to white/clear with a bit of blood when I resumed......SO I can not stop it. either slow the progression of the infection til I can pay for the surgery in October and live with diarrhea or no diarrhea and chance it spreading and killing me .....yeah easy choice right.

I am selling a bunch of old appliances, games, guns, furniture, scrap metal, etc. to fix those damn freezers. Over all good deal you know even if broken, they are used about 800-1200 new in the 2600range and I got 2 for 300....one has a burned out overload panel on the compressor a 200-300fix the other seems to have a freon leak or a bad sensor, a simple 50-75 fix.

Getting a DNA test done to track down my blood family...being adopted with all these health issues...I need answers. Hopefully some blood relative is in the registry.

This site really gives me a place to feel useful, and build up my karma points (need to cash these in soon), but sometimes I feel like a cross of Dr. House and Sheldon Cooper .

One wish I keep on having, dear lord send me a philanthropist sponsor for my life or let me when the damn lottery