Ennis_TX in Daily Life and Compromising
This last month as been a mess, turmoil with sponsor (for my food truck business) changing their mind, the updated health codes, and being constantly turned down trying to find sponsors, investors, etc. I found and made back up plans and compromises but still feeling abysmal at the fact I will probably spend another year struggling and indebted my family with my medical expenses, and bills for food and rent. Hopefully it picks up with market sales this year. I did redo my recipes for better gluten free cakes, rolls, and breads for the bakery. Using more expensive almond flours, no sugars at all, and using more and different leavening agents for improved rise. Even removing the staple psyllium husk from my cakes.
My emotional support animal Ouros the bearded dragon has been a complete nutcase. I know he is mentally handicapped (heck his name came from the fact he would try to eat his own tail as a baby til he chewed most of it off). We got him a solid walled enclosure with sliding elevated windows. This stopped him running into walls full force every day til he stunned himself. As he used to just bang his head on glass walls of his other one all day til I would stop him or he hurt himself too much to move. Now he will scratch at the windows on this one, like nails on a chalkboard.....still special ed lizard does not comprehend see through materials, but at least it is raised so he can not head bash hard on it. He is eating less live feeders and more veggies as he has gotten older and is saving money. Still daily he has one of his panic/mental attacks and starts freaking out til I put him in a small box for a hour or hug him close til he calms down. Heck this morning he tried to cook himself attacking his heating element. Unsure who is comforting who in this relationship lol. I think I know how parents with a kid on the spectrum feel about being powerless to help their kids.
As to my body, diarrhea is back..... I spent January eating more and more meat, lean venison, Epic Pork Rinds, Turkey Bacon, Tuna, Salmon, Grass fed beef. Now around the end I tried tapering back my enzymes to save money...and the D got MUCH worse like 6 times a day liquid. Going back off meat in February for a "Vegetarian" month, fitting for the month of love eh?
This brought up some other interesting concepts, could blood sugar be a issues with the D also and are they related. I was talking with other people on KETO, I have something abnormal. I can eat no sugar, no starches, no fruit, grains, or starchy veggies and even fasting still have a glucose of 101-120. Apparently I should be in the 80-90 range with my diet. Maybe my pancreas function got worse or completely dead? I mean what happens if you have NO insulin? Can't find studies on someone without a pancreas trying to Keto or atkins diet to manage blood sugar. I started a "diabetic" regime of chrominum, and a a few other things playing with herbal regimes and finding they help me feel better and evening stemming the binge eats a bit.
Good News about body, throughout the month of January I put on 6.5lbs, I see very little jiggle in the mirror jumping but more defined abs, leg muscles, and arms. This might either be due to increased animal products, bone broths, or the extreme increase and in fat and protein. Trying to keep up the high fat/protein with vegan sources for half the month of FEB to biohack this. Last week of February I am going to go low fat high protein and do the old "cutting" I used to do. Really go for the full definition competition look.
I also have regained a good deal of nerve response....annoyingly so. Used to be I could cut myself, burn myself, drinking something hot, or something else and not be bothered by it. NOW, I feel little cuts on my hands with a odd burning sensation to them, I feel stuff being warm...and the old pain sensations of burning myself with hot food, hot pans, drinking hot beverages...even cold leaving a painful sensation after handing frozen items for extended amounts of time. Heck I feel itchy dry skins, crumbs on my bed, and lint globs in my socks....stuff that I have not noticed since I was a kid.