Guts & Brains

This is my first blog post, as well as my first post on this site in general. I have been to this website & forum many times before, lurking for information & understanding when I first realized the possibility of gluten intolerance in 2011. However even after I have been gluten-free, then glutened, then paneled, then gluten-free, then glutened, then scoped, I still don't know what to say or where to even begin on the forums. So this is my first jump into the Celiac Community Interweb.

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As said, I don't even know what to say or where to begin. A lot of thoughts, feelings, & phrases come to mind in my life with gluten intolerance, however one word speaks the loudest & has the most impact of my well-being: overwhelmed.

ATM I am not able to write too much; because there really is a very long & stressful story behind my gluten & lactose intolerance (technically not celiac, but I am still convinced it is) journey. Right now I am just letting people know that I am a new member.

I was gluten-free for a year myself, and then purposely glutened myself for diagnostic purposes. I am not gluten-free ATM. I should be. I want to be. But it is expensive, and it is hard to get back into the game. Most of the reason is because I am seemingly depressed & unmotivated because of stress & chronic headaches. Most to which can he helped with the gluten-free diet, however that is such my gut-cycle life with gluten.

Right now I am experiencing chronic headaches & migraines, to the point I actually sought help again from a neurologist and was put on a AC (I despise taking meds in every way, but I am to my breaking point). I have been experiencing so much muscle pain & weakness that at times I am bedridden on my days off of work. Other times my legs give out when I walk or stand to long, or I have to have my husband brush my hair for me because I cant lift my arms.

I work a lot, horrible hours most of the time. When I eat everything gets worse. When I don't eat I get dizzy & disoriented. My husband is amazing, my friends & family are amazing. I am young and have my future ahead of me both professionally & personally; but physically I am miserable. It holds me back. I try to fight it, I try to move forward, but my body fails me & it brings my brain with it (brain fog, ADHD, depression. migraines & headaches).

I am at a loss. I am overwhelmed.