Lemonade's Blog

I feel crap ( this is not the word i wanted to use) more so emotionally than physically. I wish I could just stay under my covers. I hat my life, this is unfair and I feel like crying every second of the day. my energy is as terrible right now. I tried to make crepes but failed miserably, i had some and was disgusted with every bite, i only like the peanutbutter on them. Last night I had some banana bread and pb, didnt sit well, felt sick, went to bed though so itwasnt so bad. I dont want to go through today. I dont have the emotional energy. I have a burning sensation in my throat right now, it hurts. I feel lousy. This sucks ass. I had a really really hard BM this morning, it left me feeling drained. It hurt aswell. My eyes are exceptionally dry today. My head hurts too and my stomach feels sick and watery. there is no quality in this life. I am so depressed. nOt suicidal just depressed beong words. I am angry and miserable. I feel sorry for those who come in contact with me becasue iam an emotional monster.