I Am Stupid

[elk]

Had a mini-melt down yesterday and apparently today. Yesterday I was out and "had to have" food, so I risked McDonalds fries... I'm too stupid to ask if they had a dedicated frier. Not sure if that's the cause of my migraine today since I had a headache before I ate them (I figure if I'm going to do the time then I'm going to do the crime ).

So THEN since I'm feeling miserable today, I went ahead and had some Kellog's corn flakes, only looking up afterward if Malt flavoring is an issue... and apparently it can be. So now I'm wondering how long I'll be miserable.

I don't normally eat processed foods and I've done so well over the past 6 months avoiding gluten and then I go and ruin it because I'm feeling bad. Why do I have to pay for every little thing I do?? I try so freaking hard and it seems no matter what I do, I'm doomed to feel miserable for the rest of my life. I already had to quit my job. Our savings are about depleted and it's all my fault. Medications don't work and make things worse. Doctors can't find anything wrong with me ("I'm the picture of health"). I really can't take much more of this and I don't know what else to do about it.

Sorry for the pity party... thanks for listening.

[hnybny91]

First - you are NOT stupid! Second - you will get through this latest episode. We all have eaten things we should not have. You live and learn and it does get easier - I promise

[kareng]

I try to have a little something with me - a small Snickers, bag of peanuts, Lara bar type thing. I have found that most mini-marts have little bags of peanuts, M&M's, yogurt. Something to get you through.

[ravenwoodglass]

Don't beat yourself up about it. As another poster said try to be prepared by keeping a 'goodie' bag with you so you don't fall to temptation when you are very hungrey. I hope your feeling better soon.

[GFinDC]

You are learning how to do things better. You are learning how your body reacts now vs a few years ago. Learning involves trial and error. Gettin' smarter is a process of time and errors. You is started down that path, keep going and you will get there!

[elk]

thanks for the support

[Strawberry-Jam]

I would do that a lot with my reflux before diagnosis--"well, if I'm already having terrible reflux and feel this bad, then I might as well eat what I want." Then it got worse... I hated myself several times for binging on chocolate (which I don't even LIKE! what is my problem?) and alcohol (by binge I mean not a lot but rather too close to bedtime) and paying for it now AND later.

brains are silly things. But things will def get better!!

[nmthommy]

get the book "Why Do I Still Have Thyroid Symptoms? When My Lab Tests are Normal." by Dr. Kharrazian.

I was beginning to think all my issues where in my head. My doctor recommended that I read it and I'm now on my way to better health.

The doctors can only test for certain things and then the "refrence range" is based on your community results. So you could have issues but have "normal" readings.

[naiiad]

*hugs* trust me I'm going through the exact same thing. Adjusting to this diet is hard and its easy to feel overwhelmed and it's easy to make mistakes. You aren't stupid and you definitely aren't alone. It takes time, but you'll learn which foods are safe and which aren't.

Anything packaged or processed is usually a red-flag, unless it's labeled as gluten-free. Nature's Path sells some really good gluten-free corn flakes and other cereals. Also, there are yummy foods that you can get from corner stores and stuff if you're away from home. Smartfood popcorn, reeses peanut butter cups and nuts and dried fruit (read the label) are a tasty and safe choice.

Things will get better! Hang in there =)