I Know What's Wrong Now, When Will I Get Better?
Posted 16 January 2004 - 06:00 AM
I was terribly iron deficient, my level was 2. She checked for blood in the stool. Negative. Then she sent me to a Gastro, who did a Colonoscopy and an Endoscopy. She took several biopsies and they confirmed that I do indeed have Celiac Sprue, a condition that I had never heard of. BUT, believe it or not, I was so relieved to hear that it wasn't cancer, that I nearly cried.
I believed then, and I believe now, that this is, in a strange way, almost a gift, because there is something that I can do about this. I can control what I eat, I can control what I put on my body. ( OK, now you all think I am really nuts. )
Yes there are days, when I would practically rip someone apart to get some bread or a bagel, but those days, honestly are not as frequent as I had thought they would be.
Anyway, this set has been a Godsend for me. I don't know of anyone else that has this condition, so it is very helpful for me to be able to communicate with you all through this board. I'm kind of hoping that we will get a chat feature, because, as you may have noticed, I like to talk...
Sorry about the longwindedness.
Posted 16 January 2004 - 10:14 AM
What a positve way to look at things. That's great! you are right. As much as I curse this disease (everyday) At least I am no longer putting junk in my body. I ate so crappy before! It's funny how you say that about the hands. My friends and boyfriend used to pick on me because my hands were pale (all in good fun- of course) I never made that connection of being sick, I just thought I needed more sun
Thank you so much for such a positive outlook!!!
Posted 16 January 2004 - 11:44 PM
I think the big thing here is to discuss the pressure your under, too much!
When I was your age, I refused to slow down and about killed myself trying to be normal and keep up with everyone. Of course, I didn't know what was wrong with me and my friends all thought I was a lazy, wimpy, whatever...so I was doing all I could to prove them wrong. If they only knew the inner strength it took and pain I endured smiling, as well as the fact that what I was accomplishing with my limitations would be like them working 20 hour days with 2 hours sleep everynight while having the flu!
My point is, let up on yourself...don't make the mistake of trying to be like everyone else until your well and you have this all under control. If you don't put this first, you won't have the strength for the other things you want to do in life. You are normal, you have a special problem that takes a little dealing with, but it won't hold you up much if you put things in the proper order. You might just have to sit down and take inventory and decide what you may be able to cut back on for right now, it is only temporary after all. Don't make the mistake I did of holding yourself up to others in comparison, they don't know what you feel like and how hard things are for you. They aren't going to make good decisions for you, you are responsible for that. You can't worry about what they think. When I was in your shoes, I thought feeling like I did was a life sentance and that year by year I was doomed to get worse and worse, that is what I had seen happen to my Mother until she was unable to get out of bed for weeks at a time and had no life at all. So, please know how fortunate you are to know now and have complete control over your future and happiness.
As far as your kitchen in your dorm room goes, your going to have to stand up for yourself a bit there I think. I know your roommate doesn't understand, but your going to have to make it clear, communcation is the key here. What is not clearly explained is not understood. If things don't change, is there anything else you can do, can you get your own room, can your parents help (or someone) to get your own place? Something, anything.
Also, you may have to consider getting a different job, some people get sick just touching gluten. How are you going to keep up with the things that are important to you if you keep getting sick from work? Do you absolutely HAVE to work? Is there any help you can get from the school if you explain your situation, there are often many avenues of help if you just ask and keep asking until you come up with some solution.
Be strong, no one can take away your person right to run your own life, no one, you always have a choice.
Posted 20 January 2004 - 03:07 PM
I am so glad you posted your message. I don't feel brave either.
I was initially relieved to find out that there was something wrong with me-- I won't detail everything about the physician who ignored my symptoms & told me twice, lets just wait the diarrhea, pain etc will go away-- ha! It took a trip to the ER to get any results.
Now, I am finding out just how incredibly easy is is to get gluten by accident. The long term issues are beginning to sink in.
My family does not get it either.. I was diagnosed right before Christmas which was held at my sisters. That was fun.... No, Mom, I can't have gravy or dressing or pie or biscuits or ..... you get the idea. Well, what can you have? Not much that I can see. The list the GI faxed was 6 pages of don't eat this. As far as he told me, meat, fresh fruit & vegetables. Avoid dairy for the first month.
As for work colleagues .. if one more person says" Oh, you can just use the Atkins diet like Shannon"--- I think I will run screaming out the door. I work in a library, so that is not a good idea
I also relate to the isolation and being left out. My job requires ocassional travel and I can forsee major problems coping with restaurant and hotel foods. I hate having to stand around at receptions, parties,etc and not dare eat anything.
I realize that I am fortunate that it was not cancer as that was my fear. I do know that I will learn to cope. I found a cookbook, although I have never heard of many of the ingredients-- xanthan gum?? Besides, I am no Laura Ingalls baking bread type-- a regular cake I made once could be used as a door stop
There is a health food store in town that does have a limited gluten-free section, so I won't starve. Well, apparently I won't have problems gaining too much weight
The main problem is that I can't seem to shake this incredible sense of depression and loss of a normal life. I hate this disease so much.
Please tell me it gets better...
Posted 20 January 2004 - 09:11 PM
a few months but I wanted you to know that you will begin to feel better
soon and this diet will be second nature to you.My turn in the road happened
a few weeks ago when I read a posting from Welda, who said if your not feeling
better then try eliminating other foods from your diet. I did this, I removed all dairy from my diet, which is very hard for me because I love cheese and yogurt.
I feel like this is basic training for us. We have to be strong
because we have the power to heal ourselves, we just have to learn the rules to "live" by. I did make a mistake I forgot that the Hershey candy bar that I have been enjoying actually contains " milk" chocolate!
gluten-free since 11/03, neg biopsy, IGA elevated
Posted 21 January 2004 - 02:26 PM
Don't kill for a pizza, as another post mentioned - get gluten-free pizza crusts (for example I got mine at Mr Ritts gluten-free bakery in Phila) to keep in the freezer for pizza cravings.
Get a bread maker and a gluten-free breadbook or pull recipes from the web. I've enjoyed having fresh warm bread right from the maker, a treat I never had before my diagnosis! Invest in Xantham gum and guar gum and the "weird" flours. My favorite so far is the all purpose gluten-free flour - so easy to use. Keep gluten-free pancake mix on hand, and try cornmeal pancakes. Make peanut butter chocolate chip cookies - no flour needed!!
There are so many great things out there to enjoy. For me it took a long time to get better enough re:depression to muster the energy to get stocked with recipes and ingredients and feed myself. But my friends and family were GREAT and helped me out and now I enjoy cooking and baking more than I ever did before. As for social life, I feel mine hasnt changed. I just cook A LOT MORE and invite everyone over!
IT GETS BETTER!
Posted 26 January 2004 - 01:42 PM
I'm new to the boards as well. Reading the boards has helped in curing the all alone and no one nows how I feel but where do you all find the strength to start a TOTAL change of lifestyle. I'm 31 years old, have 3 young children and work 5 nights a week in a fast food restuarant. On top of being diagnosed with celiac disease, I am also very anemic, and have an underactive thyroid. Writing this makes me teary, I had never felt extremely sick growing up, just always anemic, with the occassional migraines. It never seemed to bother me. Now I am so tired that my oldest misses the school bus at least 3 times a week, and I nap with the younger two. Because you can't really see anything wrong with me, other than being tired , my husband doesn't grasp the whole change in diet I need to make for me to feel better. Did anyone else feel sorry for themselves for having to change? I know it's for my own good but it's depressing.
Thank you the opportunity to rant, even that helps.
Posted 26 January 2004 - 02:23 PM
I come here often and it really helps to know you're not alone.
Here's to good health!
Posted 15 March 2004 - 10:26 AM
making multiple batches corn bread and gluten-free bread mixes for the bread machine
this way you only have to clean up flour and mess once instead of 20 times.
leave the yeast and wet ingredients out till your ready to cook down the road.
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