Stress = Mean Celiac + Depression + God Knows What

[num1habsfan]

I've really had some rough days lately. The post I wrote last night, about feeling very, very sick, isnt any better. I still feel just as crappy if not worse.

And then today I came to school to find out teacher sick (meaning i've been here 7 hours before our first class even started, and i still got an hour and a half of school left)..

Then before class started I went on hi5.com and found the girlfriend or whatever of my uncle that passed away, (the one in my avatar, the one mentioned in the bottom of my signature). And we talked for a little bit online, and then I went browing around her profile and without realizing it would be there, I found some picture of him on there. Not that is a bad thing, but I mean i wanted to shed a few tears, and I couldn't people there was others around. And I honestly havent looks at photos of him in a while, so it made it hard..

So that added to some other personal issues that I cant mention right now that sent me into hurt/depression.

And then before I finally did start class I tried calling the guy whos been my closest friend to me in a long time, but who has vanished for the last month and a half, and hes been the only person I can really talk to about this kind of stuff because hes the only one who'll really listen...and there was no answer.

*cries*

Twice today I've had to take Ventolin, because I felt like I was going to start having an asthma attack..

I just want to go home, NOT study for my test tomorrow, and try to beg someone to hug me!!!

I'm sorry for this post. its boring, pointless..

~lisa~

[dlp252]

{{{{{hugs}}}}} I'm sorry that had to be a cyber hug. Grief is a hard thing...there's no time table to getting over it, so don't be so hard on yourself, cry as much as you want. It also makes everything else we have to deal with that much harder to deal with! I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, I hope you'll feel better soon.

[Guest nini]

I too wish I could give you a hug... I hope you can take some time for yourself and just rest and try to get feeling better. Grieving on top of not feeling good is not fun, I know... anyway {{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[bluelotus]

I am sorry you are hurting. I hope for brighter days for you in the future.

[num1habsfan]

Thank you guys for your hugs. Means a lot that someone out there cares..

Still in the most of my mind is the thought of why can't my uncle still be alive, and why he cant he just hop over here and help me out in all possible ways....

~lisa~