One More Tie

[Razzle Dazzle Brazell]

I swear if anybody in myhouse eats my food one more time I am gonna go to the store and buy my own refregerator, nuwave cooktop and nuwave oven. I will fix all my stuff in my room. They just don't care but them eating my food means there is a day I go without supper. I can't just go to a snack machine or just fix a microwave dinner. All my food is budgeted. They know it makes me sick if I eat something else,m they just don't care. I have to work to pay for my food and one day I cave in because I am starving and weak and running on fumes at work, means I spend the next week ill.

Am I the only one who sometimes feels as if the people who are supposed to love you the most don't care if they make you ill? On top of this, one of the very few people in my life who listens and cares about me just died in a car accident and I am beginning to feel that I wish it were me instead. Of her. This suffering seems endless and a lost cause. I am on a rollercoaster of anger, hurt, depression and I don't know how long I can hold onto hope :'(

[mushroom]

I am sorry for the loss of your friend Some people are very special and make such a difference in our lives. Hang in there, and don't let the grieving get you down too far.

Family can be very thoughtless and inconsiderate. Try to be rational with them rather than angry, if you can. Print our your post here and give it to them, so that they can understand in a moment of reflection what they are doing to you and how bad it makes you feel. Chin up a bit, Razzle, you can do this !!

[Adalaide]

Awww ((((hugs)))) hang in there! Losing a friend is always a terrible thing, but we're all glad to still have you here.

You aren't the only one to get mad, or upset about stuff like that. I about blew my top this evening when I found a bunch of my stuff in the "deli" drawer of the fridge. You know... the one everyone else in the house gets into while handling bread. But eating my stuff? I'd lose it. You're right, we don't have options. I try to talk to people about things like this when I'm not mad, that way I don't freak out and make them not listen to me. It is possible that they just don't realize they are being inconsiderate jerks. Of course, you need to be all PC and not actually use those words when you talk to them, no matter how appealing.

[Razzle Dazzle Brazell]

Thanks to the both of you for your encouragement. Tried to post sooner but had problems with replying so I gave up. My brother is psycho...literally. He has gone crazy and there is no talking to him. It is like talking to a drunk. If i get stern he could fly off the handle and punch a hole in the wall or who knows what. Not being able to assert myself with someone who is very selfish and egocentric leaves me feeling trapped. Yesterday I came home and my coconut milk is completely empty because he drank all their milk then mine. He makes excuses and says he doesnt know whats mine. Really?! when in our entire life has mom ever bougt coconut milk or anything besides dairy? When has she bought brown eggs? When has mom ever made burgers out of turkey meat?

There is absolutely nothing I can do about it but it causes anxiety when I think about him messing with my stuff. I am a CNA and if i get glutened bad enough I dont want to lose my job because my stupid brother got into my crap as if there is not enough food in this house for him to eat. Hhh I am thinking about asking my aunt if I can move in with her because there is also mold all in this house making me ill