Just Venting

[NotMollyRingwald]

Please excuse my pity party but its either post on this website full of prople who get it or run screaming through the neighborhood and get locked in the looney bin.

I've had about all I can take of this gluten challenge. Admittedly I've let of go too far (eating too much gluten), partly because I'm desperate for confidence in a diagnosis (+ of -, idont care, i judg want to be sure my test results are accurate) and partly because I'm mourning the loss of my childhood comfort diet (processed junk food). My head is such a mess. Headache and brain fog so thick I cant thnk straight, exhausted despite more sleep than usual, dark circles under my eyes, horrible smells all around me (body odor and gas, despite stict hygiene measures), it hurts to lie down, it hurts to sit up. Stomach acid boiling, constant acod in the back of my throat. Everyone at work has noticed, they keep asking me if m ok, that I look sick. And I AM sick. The worst part is the Ffect on my fmily. I'm missing out on time with my son, breaks my heart when he asks me if I'm still sick..."you not sick anymore mommy?" He's not even four yet...i don't remember telling him I as sick, but he obviously gets that something is wrong with mommy. :*( My marriage is strained. Hubby is trying to understand, but he just doesn't. My libido is gone, all I want to do is sleep/lay down... He is being as supportive as he can, but its not fair to him... Plus i just realized that i most likely ahve to keep eating gluten for longer thN i was thinking, unless the GI is able to schedule for an endo right away, ive got AT LEAST 2ore weeks of hell i fromt of me. Ugggggggggh. I just want to curl into a ball and hide. My optimism and positivity are gone. I hope they come back.

Sorry for the negativity. Just had to get that all out. Maybe looking back at this post will help me stay gluten free someday....

[NotMollyRingwald]

Ps please excuse the typos and grammar errors. On my phone...and frankly scarlet I don't give a da*$.

[SeekingSarah]

((((((hugs)))))

[shadowicewolf]

Look at it this way, there is only two more weeks to go. You've made it this far, you can do it!

[kareng]

Thank goodness you chose posting here over running naked, down the street with a baguette in your hand!

( that was what you said, wasn't it? )

[notme]

((((((((((((((hugs, kiddo, hang on, you're almost there)))))))))))))))))

[Celiac Mindwarp]

IT WILL GET BETTER AFTER (all of it iykwim)

My husband has back and even better version of me than the one he married.

It is always worth calling for cancellations. I wrote down my gluten challenge symptoms and my doctor saw me pretty sharply.

I know you want the definitive diagnosis, but many of us are ncgi, and experience massive benefits from gluten-free. Your body has made it very clear.

We are all rooting for you and will be here for your journey back to health.

[NotMollyRingwald]

Thanks everyone!! I can't tell you how grateful I am for this site...having support from people who really know this hell is invaluable. 

 

I woke up feeling more positive this morning. Heard a few songs on the radio on the way to work that were encouraging, and a reminder that I'm not alone and foresaken, there is amazing support here and He is always with me.  Reminded me I need to be thankful the symptoms aren't much worse, caz they really could be a LOT worse. I can get through this day.  I can get through the rest of this challenge.  Then I can start healing and get my life back. It will be ok.

 

 

Thank goodness you chose posting here over running naked, down the street with a baguette in your hand!



( that was what you said, wasn't it? )

BTW - I literally LOL'd Kareng.  That wasn't what I wrote, but you managed to understand exactly what I meant!

[kareng]

 

 

BTW - I literally LOL'd Kareng.  That wasn't what I wrote, but you managed to understand exactly what I meant!

 

I know.  Just wanted you to laugh.

[NotMollyRingwald]

I know.  Just wanted you to laugh.

  well done!!

[kareng]

  well done!!

 

 

The neighbors would have been talking about that for years!