Frustrated...i Dont' Care Anymore

[schuyler]

I feel much better now that I have decided that I don't care about my weight anymore. People can think whatever they want to. I am going to eat or not eat whatever I want that will make me finally feel better. I talked to my husband and he understands better now, especially after watching me sit in the bathroom in pain for a whole night after eating. We went to a friend's cabin this weekend and were out on the lake boating and stuff so I had to wear a swimsuit. He asked if I was going to wear a bikini or a one-piece racing suit. For a minute I was worried about it and then I told him that I was going to wear whichever one I felt like and people could think whatever they wanted to. It felt really good

Good for you!!! I'm just getting to the point where I don't care either. Like you, I've spent a lot of time worrying about what other think, and I'm tired of it. I wore a bikini to the waterslides a few weeks ago, and I had some people giving me looks and making comments, but I was happy and didn't care.

Just focus on eating healthy and letting your intestines heal; everything else will come later.

[mellajane]

Dont get frustrated I am 30 years old and have been sick since I was 7. Do you know how many jokes and comments I have received. I weigh 110. That is great. It has taken me almost two years of being on this diet to gain weight. It will come. I have always been small but us small people know what its like to be skinny.Your appetite wont seem like it is changing you will just see yourself keep on some weight. It will come! This disease has thrown our bodies off no telling how long for. Good Luck. Mella

For the last few months my family has been bugging me that I need to gain back the weight I lost when I first got sick...and I have been trying so hard. I ate literally four or five jars of peanut butter in the last four days...I've been eating all the time for weeks and I still look like a skeleton. The only thing it has done is make me feel sick constantly. My husband says I should gain weight first then get my stomach back to feeling good but he doesn't understand how bad it feels sometimes. I am at the point where I don't even care how I look...I just want to feel better. I hate the looks that I get a lot of times, but feeling bad just isn't worth it. Is it really that bad to be really skinny?

Thanks for listening (or reading ) ...sometimes it's hard when no one really can understand how you feel. Most people take food for granted without worrying so much about reading every label so it's nice that all of you get it.