Pain Pain Pain....

[Jodi Mills]

Okay so I know ya'll suggested to cut soy and dairy out right away, but I have opted to wait till we get to arizona, just because most of the snack foods I have found that are gluten free either have soy or dairy, or both. and since we will be driving, i do need the few options for snack food available.

I know that was off subject, but today I have switched my diet up a little. Normally I start the day with a slimfast(breakfast makes me sick, but I can do the slimfast and not get sick) the i snack on about 3 rice cakes between 10-1 at one i go on lunch and will eat a bowl of rice, or some apple sauce, or fruit cups or something like that, then a gluten free meal for dinner,

today i had my usual slimfast, instead of rice cakes, i decided to have a sliced apple for my mid morning snack, had a bowl of rice for lunch, and now here i sit, in pain, my stomach feels like someone is twisting it in knots...I think it has to be the apple, it is the only thing that has changed.

on to another subject, I think there is something seriously wrong with me, and I am wondering if anyone feels the same way. since going gluten free I have lost about 10 lbs, bringing me to an ideal weight of 130lbs, i am 5'6. so the question is does anyone else look in the mirror, when they are at an ideal weight and just get disgusted by what they see?

everytime I look at my self i just feel gross and fat...and i know by all means 130 is getting into the range of too skinny for me...i just dont get it...

[JNBunnie1]

on to another subject, I think there is something seriously wrong with me, and I am wondering if anyone feels the same way. since going gluten free I have lost about 10 lbs, bringing me to an ideal weight of 130lbs, i am 5'6. so the question is does anyone else look in the mirror, when they are at an ideal weight and just get disgusted by what they see?

everytime I look at my self i just feel gross and fat...and i know by all means 130 is getting into the range of too skinny for me...i just dont get it...

Hmmm.... I would say you need to be very careful about what thoughts your brain is throwing at you right now. You're going through a transitional period and it's easy to beat yourself up about anything and everything. I personally am 5'7", 140lbs. This is my ideal weight, and I probably look exactly like you, because I figure 10 lbs for every inch after 5'5'' is appropriate-ish. For a long time before gluten-free, I was between 105 and 115, and couldn't break the 120 barrier. It was very frustrating for me, and I'd been trying to gain weight for a long time, and we had an actual celebration with cake when I hit 140lbs. I didn't enjoy being the 'oh-so-skinny' girl, because in case you haven't noticed, most guys don't actually like that. Even with all of that, I still find myself thinking these insidious little thoughts sometimes about how my (tiny) belly pudge is bad or how my butt's getting too big. WE ARE BEING BRAINWASHED. If you would like a really good confidence builder, go watch Alicia Key's 'No One' music video. She is an extremely confident, extremely hot, extremely CURVY woman who obviously is happy with herself, and so are 95% of the men in our country, as evidenced by the over 2 million viewings of that video. If you want, I can email you a picture of myself, and you can put it next to a picture of you and write under them, "WE ARE HOT!!!" If that still doesn't do it, buy yourself some hot lingerie and dance around the bedroom for your boyfriend and let his reaction tell you how hot you are.

As for your belly pain, if applesauce doesn't bother you I wouldnt guess a straight apple would, but try laying off for a week and then eat another apple and see what happens. Applesauce is usually cooked at least somewhat, so raw apples might be too rough for your belly right now.

[Jodi Mills]

If you want, I can email you a picture of myself, and you can put it next to a picture of you and write under them, "WE ARE HOT!!!" If that still doesn't do it, buy yourself some hot lingerie and dance around the bedroom for your boyfriend and let his reaction tell you how hot you are.

As for your belly pain, if applesauce doesn't bother you I wouldnt guess a straight apple would, but try laying off for a week and then eat another apple and see what happens. Applesauce is usually cooked at least somewhat, so raw apples might be too rough for your belly right now.

That is funny, I think he would fall off his rocker if i danced around in lingerie...lol He is not into buying it, cuz its too expensive to just sit on the floor...lol I know alot of the time when i do feel that i am "fat" i go and look at some pictures of when i was in the 110-115 category, (a lil less than a year ago) and can see why my whole family thought i was on some serious drugs. and that helps.

I dont know why the apple would be the thing bothering, but it is the only change in the diet. so i am going to cut it out and see what happens. i just get tired of eating the same thing everyday, but it seems like everytime i switch something, i end up in pain....i am seriously considering going home....but i only have an hour left....

[JNBunnie1]

That is funny, I think he would fall off his rocker if i danced around in lingerie...lol He is not into buying it, cuz its too expensive to just sit on the floor...lol I know alot of the time when i do feel that i am "fat" i go and look at some pictures of when i was in the 110-115 category, (a lil less than a year ago) and can see why my whole family thought i was on some serious drugs. and that helps.

I dont know why the apple would be the thing bothering, but it is the only change in the diet. so i am going to cut it out and see what happens. i just get tired of eating the same thing everyday, but it seems like everytime i switch something, i end up in pain....i am seriously considering going home....but i only have an hour left....

That's a good trick with the pictures, helps remind you how awful it felt to not be able to gain weight. I was actually shocked when I saw a picture of myself on my 20th birthday, my butt was nonexistant!

So no lingerie? Dance around naked! Watch a couple Shakira videos and practice til you get a couple moves down, basically just gotta shake your butt and wave your arms around. He'll love it. Well, mine does......

(Are we allowed to talk about this stuff?....)

[ravenwoodglass]

I wanted to add just a quick note about apples. Most are coated with a lacto resin to help keep them fresh. IF you are sensitive to lactose you may react to the apple coating. If you are not dairy sensitive then the peels may just be too much for your system to digest. When your up to it you might want to experiment and see if they are more digestable if you peel them.

[Jodi Mills]

So no lingerie? Dance around naked! Watch a couple Shakira videos and practice til you get a couple moves down, basically just gotta shake your butt and wave your arms around. He'll love it. Well, mine does......

(Are we allowed to talk about this stuff?....)

I have no idea!!!lol I am actually an okay dancer..lol I love shakira, the way she can move is amazing..lol, my sis and me used to get together and I would teach her how to isolate her hips from her upper half and stuff. So I am going to a passion party this weekend, and maybe with that I will get the courage to dance around for him...lol I am so self concious, it drives me nuts...lol

Ravenwood:

That is a good idea, my bf says i should give it another try too, but i will wait a few days, and see how things go. and i will peel them first and only eat a slice or two at first, until i see how it affects me...

[moon-gypsy]

First, about the apple. . .I find that when I eat raw fruit--especially apples or citrus--on an empty (or nearly empty) stomach, that I'm tied up in cramps almost immediately. But if I eat it with a good cushion of something else, no problems. I thought it might be the acid in the fruit, but who knows. You might want to try eating one at the end of a meal and see if that helps or not.

Secondly, about your self-image. . .this is what helps me when I get a little nuts about myself. If you watch daytime TV, stop. Seeing commercials about the next miracle diet plan or fitness equipment will make anyone feel fat and out of shape. Same thing goes for all those women's magazines whose headlines scream, "Lose 10 pounds fast!" right next to the cover photo of a giant chocolate cake. When that little voice in your head tells you that you are fat, argue with it, out loud if possible. It feels stupid, but it helps. Every day, try to think of at least one thing that you like about your body, no matter how trivial. I also find that just a little bit of exercise (15 minutes of yoga, or a walk around the block) helps my mood and my energy. Of course, I'm terrible about exercise, I only get religious about it when I start feeling REALLY bad!

By the way, how long did it take you to start gaining weight again? I've been gluten-free for almost 5 months, and I don't think I've gained yet, but I'm hopeful.

-D

[Jodi Mills]

First, about the apple. . .I find that when I eat raw fruit--especially apples or citrus--on an empty (or nearly empty) stomach, that I'm tied up in cramps almost immediately. But if I eat it with a good cushion of something else, no problems. I thought it might be the acid in the fruit, but who knows. You might want to try eating one at the end of a meal and see if that helps or not.

By the way, how long did it take you to start gaining weight again? I've been gluten-free for almost 5 months, and I don't think I've gained yet, but I'm hopeful.

-D

Going to try the apple cushion, i was on an empty stomach when i ate it, so that could be the problem. as for the weight gain....well i havent gained any since going gluten free I have actually dropped 10 lbs, thats why i dont understand this image thing...maybe its because i am still bloated feeling or whatever. I am going to start walking when i get home from work, maybe that will help. I am so religious about "not" working out...I dont think i have ever really worked out...and maybe that too is part of the problem.

I am def. happy being 130, if i lose too much more weight I will look like a person who uses drugs...seriously its kinda gross. before going gluten free(the second time) I had problems keeping my wieght steady, I would go from 145(age 17-19) then dropped to 115(19-20) then back up to 145, then down and up and down and up. I was back about 140-145 when I went gluten free this time, and have dropped down to 130. and the last 7 lbs were in the last 2 weeks or so..I weigh myself weekly, just to see.

I def. dont want to gain weight, but I also do not want to lose anymore....

[sunflower53072]

I think some types of Slim fast like the Optima may not be gluten free. I read the only one that is guaranteed gluten free is the kind labeled easy to digest and it says gluten free on the label.

[JNBunnie1]

Secondly, about your self-image. . .this is what helps me when I get a little nuts about myself. If you watch daytime TV, stop. Seeing commercials about the next miracle diet plan or fitness equipment will make anyone feel fat and out of shape. Same thing goes for all those women's magazines whose headlines scream, "Lose 10 pounds fast!" right next to the cover photo of a giant chocolate cake. When that little voice in your head tells you that you are fat, argue with it, out loud if possible. It feels stupid, but it helps. Every day, try to think of at least one thing that you like about your body, no matter how trivial. I also find that just a little bit of exercise (15 minutes of yoga, or a walk around the block) helps my mood and my energy. Of course, I'm terrible about exercise, I only get religious about it when I start feeling REALLY bad!

By the way, how long did it take you to start gaining weight again? I've been gluten-free for almost 5 months, and I don't think I've gained yet, but I'm hopeful.

-D

Those are good ideas for everyone. I personally gained a few pounds within six months of gluten free, but only gained the other extra 15 I needed over a year later.