I Am In A Funk

[ItchyAbby]

I have been feeling bad in the afternoons - shaky, nauseous, really tired, irritable. I feel marginally better when I eat something, so maybe it's a blood sugar thingy. But it's hard to eat when I am queasy.

 

And the #&$%ing rash - just ebbs and flows as it pleases, disrupting my sleep, my work, everything.

 

I am paranoid lately, totally convinced that something in my kitchen is contaminating me. I keep finding things that I am uncertain about - did I get this out of the bulk bins? Was this certified gluten free? I am loathe to throw them out - this gets expensive! But, I am not using it anyway, so....

 

I also got a flu shot yesterday and I think it is making me feel even more awful. I am super tired today.

 

And the anxiety - not as bad as it was before going gluten free, but still there and oh-so-tiresome.

 

*sigh*

 

I want my life back. I want to just have one day without itching, anxiety, sleeplessness, irritability, crying, fear and/or just not feeling so great. Just one day. Please.

 

Sorry for the pity party rant. And thanks for being here to hear me rant. I'm going to go cry now.

[love2travel]

Oh, I am sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. I have no medical advice or recommendations but just know I am thinking of you. There is always hope. ALWAYS. Hang in there, ok? Maybe have a hot cup of tea and a nice long bath with a good book.

[w8in4dave]

I know how you feel!! I have been in a Funk also ... I know when your first Dx'd you do question everything!! The things I got out of the big bins, I wasn't sure about ,I gave to friends who can use it. I cannot take the chance. But lately something has been bothering me and I am not 100% what it is!! I think tonight I figured it out! I am hoping it isn't what I think it is, but I will check it tomorrow. I get a bit depressed and then I shut down. I close out my friends, I don't answer the phone. I even had quit posting in here then one of the Mods emailed me and I said I was in a funk. When I seen your post I thought , I don't remember posting that!! Lol I hope you feel better soon!! Make a log of everything you put in your mouth! It may help... Good luck

[GF Lover]

Listen up you two Funky girls.  Healing is a process and can be a dreadfully long, aggravating and painful process. 

 

Abster,  re-read the DH threads and what Squirmy has has told you and concentrate on being as comfortable as you can.  Get as much rest as you can.  No iodine, no wheat products on skin and clean diet.  You have to get through this part to get well.  

 

Waitin,  there are no quick cures out there.  Only time will help.  You've drastically changed your diet.  Your body needs to catch up to your thinking.   I use the 15 minute rule.  For every 15 minutes of activity, follow with 15 minutes of rest.  Your body can't heal it if is stressed out.

 

About a year ago my life changed.  I had to accept that I now have certain restrictions.  I fought it like hell but only hurt myself by not accepting my new level of abilities.  It takes a lot of patience to get to the place where you don't feel completely overwhelmed by what life has thrown at you.

 

You guys are going to be alright.  Keep your eye on the goal.  Keep things in your life simple for now.  Listen to some music, gaze out a window, take a long walk.  Savor each day for what it is... LIFE

 

Colleen 

[ItchyAbby]

Thanks, you guys. It helps to have you all here. I really am doing better than I was, but some days...I just don't got it, you know? I try so hard and work so hard to keep my head up and for the most part I am succeeding. But today, it just fell apart. And I get so scared. This thing scares me so much. I am so afraid of missing something, that I will suddenly get worse and not know why and have to go through the hell with doctors that I went through in the first half of this year. It really messes with my head sometimes.

 

And I am pissed that I had to miss my sewing class tonight. I love my sewing classes, they are important to me. But I was feeling so not good (probably from the flu shot) that I just did not think it was a good idea to go. And that just sucks.

 

I took a bath, drank tea and then my sweetheart hugged me while I cried, then rubbed my feet and we watched a show together. He's a treasure.

[Marilyn R]

Thanks, you guys. It helps to have you all here. I really am doing better than I was, but some days...I just don't got it, you know? I try so hard and work so hard to keep my head up and for the most part I am succeeding. But today, it just fell apart. And I get so scared. This thing scares me so much. I am so afraid of missing something, that I will suddenly get worse and not know why and have to go through the hell with doctors that I went through in the first half of this year. It really messes with my head sometimes.

 

And I am pissed that I had to miss my sewing class tonight. I love my sewing classes, they are important to me. But I was feeling so not good (probably from the flu shot) that I just did not think it was a good idea to go. And that just sucks.

 

I took a bath, drank tea and my sweetheart hugged my while I cried, then rubbed my feet and we watched a show together. He's a treasure.

At  end of the day, your time spent with your sweetheart was way more important than your sewing class IMHO.  There's always next week...

[NoGlutenCooties]

 I am so afraid of missing something, that I will suddenly get worse and not know why and have to go through the hell with doctors that I went through in the first half of this year. It really messes with my head sometimes.

 

 

I know this can be easier said than done sometimes, but try not to get twisted over what MIGHT happen.  If something bad happens, freak out about it WHEN it happens.  Because whether or not you freak out about it BEFORE it happens, you're going to freak out when it happens anyways... and there's just no sense in freaking out about it twice.  And if it never happens... you saved yourself from an unnecessary stressful, twisted, freak-out.

[ItchyAbby]

At  end of the day, your time spent with your sweetheart was way more important than your sewing class IMHO.  There's always next week...

True that. It was no hardship staying home, cozy by the fire with him.

 

I know this can be easier said than done sometimes, but try not to get twisted over what MIGHT happen.  If something bad happens, freak out about it WHEN it happens.  Because whether or not you freak out about it BEFORE it happens, you're going to freak out when it happens anyways... and there's just no sense in freaking out about it twice.  And if it never happens... you saved yourself from an unnecessary stressful, twisted, freak-out.

You are right, I know this. I do so well at this sometimes, but this week...eck. I am worn down a bit, I think. I am in the middle of a flare that has been non-stop for almost three weeks. Again, not as bad as it was back in the spring, but it is disruptive nonetheless. It's almost like I have PTSD - my reactions to anything feeling even slightly off in my body go way overboard.

 

But really, freaking about about the unknowns does me no good. Thank you for the reminder

[w8in4dave]

Listen up you two Funky girls.  Healing is a process and can be a dreadfully long, aggravating and painful process. 

 

Abster,  re-read the DH threads and what Squirmy has has told you and concentrate on being as comfortable as you can.  Get as much rest as you can.  No iodine, no wheat products on skin and clean diet.  You have to get through this part to get well.  

 

Waitin,  there are no quick cures out there.  Only time will help.  You've drastically changed your diet.  Your body needs to catch up to your thinking.   I use the 15 minute rule.  For every 15 minutes of activity, follow with 15 minutes of rest.  Your body can't heal it if is stressed out.

 

About a year ago my life changed.  I had to accept that I now have certain restrictions.  I fought it like hell but only hurt myself by not accepting my new level of abilities.  It takes a lot of patience to get to the place where you don't feel completely overwhelmed by what life has thrown at you.

 

You guys are going to be alright.  Keep your eye on the goal.  Keep things in your life simple for now.  Listen to some music, gaze out a window, take a long walk.  Savor each day for what it is... LIFE

 

Colleen

 

TY Colleen, 

I know I am feeling a lil better and I needed that lil "Talk" I actually think bootin Corn out of my diet is helping me also. I just keep needing a boot I guess!! Funny one of my biggest sayings when my kids were small was "Patients is a Virtue" I don't have patients. But I will really try to be patient! It is hard but I will try my darndest! What other option do I have really? I will be ok!! I am taking care of me!! I just hate this tho! I can do the diet! I can restrict eating what ever they tell me to! It is just the feeling like I do.. But I will push thru it! I will make it!! Thanks for the pep talk! 

[w8in4dave]

Something happened up there lol you get the jest! TY!