I Cant Even Take A Bananana Anymore

[Lister]

god i have been so carefull so very very carfull when it comes to everything containing gluten, and i felt desent today. For breakfast i had a banana and it was fine and i also had some lumbarg rice chips. After eating these i finally had a movement that i was able to get out * i have had C for about 2 days and so this was a relif to me* then thruout the day i munched on my ricechips until they where gone around noon, also have been sipping on gaterade- I felt perfectly fine until around 1 and then i got really really tired so i layed down on the bed and within 5 minutes of falling asleep i woke up with my head coverd in sweat but im not running a temp. So i got up and my brain fog was back but in total full swing like to the point of having blurred vision for about 3 hour. Around 6 i had another banana for dinner * yes i skipped lunch* about 20 minutes after having the banana my stomic is now going crazy and it hurts so bad. I cant figure out whats wrong i made sure i did not get glutend today * all of my care products are gluten free i have checked* the only thing that may have glutened me is me and my girlfriend kissed before we even thought about what was on her lips *chapstick brand chapstick* but directly after liplocking we both jumped back and said " oh no chapstick" so i ran into the bathroom and continusaly pored water onto my lips trying to get them clean- so i guess this may have done it but i really think not since i made sure not to lick my lips before getting them thuroly washed. God my stomic hurts and it wont stop making noises * i know i really do complain alot* but im really starting to reach my limit when it comes to all of this, I have been taking it 1 day at a time but it seems i am just waisting days trying to get through this and im not living a normal life anymore. I cant seem to find happy ness with anything even my girlfriend is not getting the treatment she deserves because i cant find the strength in myself to give her the attention she needs. I cant stop worrying or thinking about stuff related to myself and my health. I would just ask my doctor to put me down but assisted suicide is not legal yet. I am to big of a wimp to do it myself so i just suffer day in and day out making myself miserable and everyone around me. I just cant even eat a banana anymore without stomic pains and i know those dont contain gluten. WHY why does this all have to be so hard and why cant it just end already, i have always been so perfectly healthy * besides my weight* but never any health problems besides small things when i was a child *fisher when i was 12, seizure when iwas 2, and thats about all the health problems i can think i have ever really had besides flues and colds* how could i randomly go from beeing so normal to beeing so extreamly over the top. ok im sorry i ranted for more then i was planning on its just keeping me from crying as thats all i have done for the past 20 minutes * yes i know im a very pansy guy* this post was only supposed to be like 2 sentences about the banana and for some reason its hurting me anyways i will end this post on a happy note

ninjas are cool

[jerseyangel]

Lister--Please, just slow down and take a deep breath. It's going to be alright--really, it is. This is such a rollercoaster ride at the beginning. I know how frusterating and depressing it is to be dong everything right and still feel sick. I'm almost at the year mark, and am still trying to figure out exactly what I can and can't eat. It sounds like you have covered everything the best you can. Did your doctor give you anything for the cramping? At the beginning, especially, we sometimes need some extra help. Mine gave me Nulev--you put it under your tongue, and it works quickly. Maybe you could check with him about something like that. I'm concerned that you may also be getting glutened at work. Could you at least not eat anything from there--bring and keep separate everything you eat during the day? I wish there was more I could offer you--don't lose hope--we're all here for you!

[Lister]

i do bring my own food for work even my own salads now, the only thing i eat from there is a burger patty or a wopper patty but i make sure the grill is clean looking before i put it down and i catch it in a plastic container before it hits the drip pans. People have said my job itself may be making me sick but im trying to be really carefull there * i always wear gloves, wash my hands constantly, make sure i never lick my lips tell im off of work* as i send in another post i would quit but i have constant hours there and job security and my money is so tight right now it would be a bad move to leave but im afriad my job may be making me sick. * this could be BS but this is what my doctor said also* "tis the season for crop burning and what not so i meen the air is making you sick around you because all of the air contains weat* is this true?? so will i just never get better until the winter and then get worse in the summer over and over????

oh and incase i have not maid this super clear since i know i have had alot of posts and what not, i am not a diganostised celiac yet, he thinks its what i have, and has done the blood work just waiting for the results so this all could be caused by something else still. but i really think it is celiac disease.

as for cramping i wouldnt call it cramping just like pinchs and pain and then gurgles and poping noises and stuff like that, not really cramping. I really am trying to stay calm its just its been 3 weeks now gluten free or for the most part * besides CC issuses, or finding out the type of crest i was using contains gluten * crest whitning with baking soda--- BAD, switchted to colgate * all colgate is safe* and i still feel miserable, so put the 3 weeks gluten free + since the time i got originaly sick and had to go to the doctors and we are almost up to 2 months now of me feeling like crap, im not built to take this, the only thing thats keeping me sane or safe is my girlfriend who is incredably supportive * aka looks up stuff online before she goes shopping and will come home with stuff like shampoo or toothpaste and tell me that mines not safe and then hand me one that is* but im starting to drive her away with how i act and feel all the time, i understand where she is coming from all she has herd is none stop complaining for over a month now and i really have not gaven her any propper attention. I have ran out of things to do to keep me occupide and stress free * usaly just play videogames but since my brainfog has gotten so bad its making them to hard to even play* so now i just try to watch tv but my head drops to the left or to the right and i find myself staring at the wall instead of the tv just thinking in my own little world in my mind constantly thinking about whats going on with me, or if im going to be fine, or what else could it be, or am i going to die, or anything related to all of this. I cant keep my mind distracted anymore i would just use my mary jane to escape from it all but the brain fog is already like having her with me and combined is such a wierd feeling i cant even handle it anymore. this message bord is the only thing i do now, literally as sad and obsessed as that sounds its the truth, i will log on make a post and sit here waiting for replys, or just browse looking for others posts that arowse intrist and read them then reply and i repete and i will literally spend up to 5 hours at once on this forum. I cant keep myself off of it and its probably just making me worse. wow i managed to do it again ment for a small reply and look what i did, sorry. I really do rant alot maybe i should make a jurnel or something. Back to my pillow for some more tears

oh and if i seem a little crazy i probably am, my mother is mentally unstable and has incrediably physcotic episodes to the point of attempted murder and bank robbery because she is littarly that crazy i dont remember what exactly is wrong with her. but i definatly got something from her

[jerseyangel]

Yea--I can understand your wanting to spend time on here right now. When you feel so sick, it tends to take up all of your thoughts, and it helps to be able to relate to others in the same position. One thing I figured out along the way is that sometimes we become sensitive to other foods when we cut out gluten. Take a good look at what you eat every day. It makes sense that something in there is a culprit. For example, I found that I can't tolerate rice--of all things. All grains cause me symptoms. Now, I'm not saying that it is rice that is bothering you, but it is possible that you have something else going on. Maybe change it up a little bit--try not having the hamburger, say, for a few days. See if that makes any difference. Kind of a modified rotation diet--I know it's hard for you. I'm trying to throw some ideas out. Try and go easy on yourself--it's going to work itself out!

[GravStars]

i do bring my own food for work even my own salads now, the only thing i eat from there is a burger patty or a wopper patty but i make sure the grill is clean looking before i put it down and i catch it in a plastic container before it hits the drip pans. People have said my job itself may be making me sick but im trying to be really carefull there * i always wear gloves, wash my hands constantly, make sure i never lick my lips tell im off of work* as i send in another post i would quit but i have constant hours there and job security and my money is so tight right now it would be a bad move to leave but im afriad my job may be making me sick. * this could be BS but this is what my doctor said also* "tis the season for crop burning and what not so i meen the air is making you sick around you because all of the air contains weat* is this true?? so will i just never get better until the winter and then get worse in the summer over and over????

oh and incase i have not maid this super clear since i know i have had alot of posts and what not, i am not a diganostised celiac yet, he thinks its what i have, and has done the blood work just waiting for the results so this all could be caused by something else still. but i really think it is celiac disease.

as for cramping i wouldnt call it cramping just like pinchs and pain and then gurgles and poping noises and stuff like that, not really cramping. I really am trying to stay calm its just its been 3 weeks now gluten free or for the most part * besides CC issuses, or finding out the type of crest i was using contains gluten * crest whitning with baking soda--- BAD, switchted to colgate * all colgate is safe* and i still feel miserable, so put the 3 weeks gluten free + since the time i got originaly sick and had to go to the doctors and we are almost up to 2 months now of me feeling like crap, im not built to take this, the only thing thats keeping me sane or safe is my girlfriend who is incredably supportive * aka looks up stuff online before she goes shopping and will come home with stuff like shampoo or toothpaste and tell me that mines not safe and then hand me one that is* but im starting to drive her away with how i act and feel all the time, i understand where she is coming from all she has herd is none stop complaining for over a month now and i really have not gaven her any propper attention. I have ran out of things to do to keep me occupide and stress free * usaly just play videogames but since my brainfog has gotten so bad its making them to hard to even play* so now i just try to watch tv but my head drops to the left or to the right and i find myself staring at the wall instead of the tv just thinking in my own little world in my mind constantly thinking about whats going on with me, or if im going to be fine, or what else could it be, or am i going to die, or anything related to all of this. I cant keep my mind distracted anymore i would just use my mary jane to escape from it all but the brain fog is already like having her with me and combined is such a wierd feeling i cant even handle it anymore. this message bord is the only thing i do now, literally as sad and obsessed as that sounds its the truth, i will log on make a post and sit here waiting for replys, or just browse looking for others posts that arowse intrist and read them then reply and i repete and i will literally spend up to 5 hours at once on this forum. I cant keep myself off of it and its probably just making me worse. wow i managed to do it again ment for a small reply and look what i did, sorry. I really do rant alot maybe i should make a jurnel or something. Back to my pillow for some more tears

oh and if i seem a little crazy i probably am, my mother is mentally unstable and has incrediably physcotic episodes to the point of attempted murder and bank robbery because she is littarly that crazy i dont remember what exactly is wrong with her. but i definatly got something from her

lister, a lot of what you're experiencing is simply anxiety. i am undiagnosed celiac/gluten-intolerant but my symptoms fit so i am trying the G.F. diet. but i have dealt with anxiety and all its related symptoms for a long time - 10+ yrs and it has made me extremely dysfunctional. anxiety CAN be caused by gluten, but it could just simply be anxiety too. the way you're reacting to all of this, it's making things worse. i know how it is. i'm getting better (not b/c of gluten - haven't been on the diet long enough, but b/c i am learning to deal with/release the anxiety - whether gluten is a factor or not, which i will find out sooner or later). it can be very hard to relax when you're mentally and emotionally overwhelmed, i understand, but it's so important to consciously relax and breathe. meditation, yoga and qigong have helped me. here's a link i found just now googling "relaxation techniques" - maybe something there will help, even if just to cope with how you're feeling until you get an official diagnosis of something:

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try not to focus so much on what's wrong. it's hard, yes, but it isn't going to make you better worrying about it. you have some test results coming up, take it from there. as for the stomach noises, i get that too. but it comes and goes, based on stress and tension mostly. if gluten is contributing to it, i don't know, i'll see soon hopefully.

best to you

[Lister]

the only thing so far i think i may be allregic to is Soy, i tried to eat some lays stax about a week ago and i ate 3 chips and withen 5 minutes i felt sick to my stomic. I already know im lactose, well i used to be and it went away but since all of this i am again, maybe temporary until my vile heals?? but i dont know. yeah that is one of my other fears is that now that i cant have weat a whole bunch of other stuff may show up, i dont think i would be able to handle it, its hard enough beeing carefull with wheat. I did have my doctor order a alergine test kit and hes gonna try to get me in next week to get tested for 96 diffrent food alergins so that question will be lifted finally. Hes also thinking about having another blood panel done, for anemia and everything again but he thinks he wants to wait about a month, i just had tests for anemia, liver stuff and a couple of other things about 3 weeks ago when i went to the ER for my bloody stools.- nothing bad found * well thats always good*

I meen nothing bad is really showing up in any of my tests

Upper GI- small damage to lower instine consisting of a small about of subsarean folds *scalloping?*

Catscan- nothing

bloodwork for liver, anemia and a couple other things- nothing

x-rays- nothing besides a stuck stool

Celiac blood panel- waiting for results

hemocult card- nothing * may have been done wrong supposed to be a 3 day test doctor made me do it in 1 because he wanted answers right away*

Parasite stool test- incomplete have not had a propper movement to give sample yet

bactera stool test- incomplete have not had a propper movement to give sample yet

but i meen so far nothing has really been found so i guess im in good shape maybe, besides emotionally and my brain fog and stomic problems

i just dont know anymore, I am finally calmed down though, I just rememberd my girlfriend left her laptop here so im on the bed laying down typing all of this and its keeping me alot more relaxed then my chair and my beast of a comp was. plus i have tons of pillows that give me comfurt * girlfriends pillows but hey it never hurts to hug a pillow* so i have calmed down finally, just still cant help but worry, Thanks jersey for always beeing there your one of my favorite members here you always have some of the best advice and you keep me sane

[jerseyangel]

Thanks!--We're going to get you through this . Moving away from the food for a moment , I want you to know that I suffered from depression and anxiety before I was diagnosed. It took me a good 4 months on the gluten-free diet before this began to lift. That's why I say - hang in there. It is a process, and it does take time. I'm glad to hear that you're calmer now--I can actually tell by the 'tone' of your post. Have a good night--think good thoughts!

[Lister]

i have tried yoga in the past acually but it did not work out to well since i cant even tuch my toes lol hehe, i used to be really flexable * back when i was 12 i was in gymnastics * but since then i am very very stiff. I have found one thing to relax unfortunatly its ciggarets, i have moved from around 8-9 a day * before getting sick* to about 13-15 a day, Yes i know very very bad habbit and its only making it harder for me to heal. I cant see myself quiting right now though but i am planning on it as soon as this all gets worked out. Well i better finally sign off for the night maybe. I need to acually cook some dinner instead of only eating bananas all day bye and thank you for all of your support it really helps

[GravStars]

i have tried yoga in the past acually but it did not work out to well since i cant even tuch my toes lol hehe, i used to be really flexable * back when i was 12 i was in gymnastics * but since then i am very very stiff. I have found one thing to relax unfortunatly its ciggarets, i have moved from around 8-9 a day * before getting sick* to about 13-15 a day, Yes i know very very bad habbit and its only making it harder for me to heal. I cant see myself quiting right now though but i am planning on it as soon as this all gets worked out. Well i better finally sign off for the night maybe. I need to acually cook some dinner instead of only eating bananas all day bye and thank you for all of your support it really helps

y/w

and in yoga, it shouldn't matter how far you can stretch, just that you stretch as far as you can, and relax into it

take care

[tarnalberry]

y/w

and in yoga, it shouldn't matter how far you can stretch, just that you stretch as far as you can, and relax into it

take care

yep. many of us regular yogis even think that the inflexible may be getting more out of the physical practice than the uber flexy folks. :-)

[lovegrov]

Look into an anti-anxiety medication like Ativan. Or more long-term like Zoloft. You would need to talk to your doctor about these, but after my daughter died Ativan and Zoloft helped keep me from going bonkers until I could stabilize.

richard