Why Now?

[schuyler]

When I was first diagnosed with Celiac back in Jan., I had no problem giving up gluten. In fact, I was excited to finally be doing something to help myself feel better. I never went through any kind of depression, gluten withdrawls, self pity or anything else.

Why am I feeling that way now? Last week, I was almost in tears when my family decided to order pizza and the boys and I had to eat gluten-free pizza. I love my gluten-free pizza, so why was I so upset? Monday at school, one of my professors passed out donuts. I never liked donuts even when I could eat them, so I have no idea why I was so upset that I ended up leaving class. Things like this have been happening almost daily.

I understand that it probably has something to do with the fact that I'm finally starting to feel better. The thing that I don't understand is why am I getting so upset over things that I never liked before or things that have a replacement that I like just as much as the original.

How can I get past this?

Danielle

[tarnalberry]

When I'm feeling this way, I usually find that it's because I don't have a choice. I may like what I have fabulously, I may hate what others have, but regardless of that, I have NO CHOICE in the matter. (Well, I do, but only the stupid choice, in my mind. And I find that frustrates me. Usually, I just have to let it pass, remind myself that, really, I do have a choice, but I'm making the smart choice, and that there are lots of other choices I do have. No magic bullet or profoundness that gets me through it, just some passing time.

[heathen]

oreo commercials make me cry--and driving past my favorite Italian restaurant. when i get down, i try to console myself with one of my favorite "normal" foods. for instance, the watermelon in your pic. hope things get better.

and you are not weird--all of us have our own timing in the grieving process.

[Lisa]

Danielle:

Time, just time. It truly is an emotional roller coaster...with many ups and downs. This will pass as time goes by.

Make sure that you are getting adequate supplements that will help your state of mind. B-12 is a biggy, as well as folic, and iron.

I am sure that other will post with additional information.

Hang in there, it will get better.

Lisa

[eleep]

You know, this might have something to do with delayed grieving -- if all the stuff about grieving being a process is correct. That is, once you get through the excitement of having something you can do to make yourself feel better -- and, of course, all of the distraction and stress of making major life changes -- you settle into a routine and begin to be able to process your feelings more -- you start to grieve more thoroughly and maybe realize that you're missing things you didn't originally realize you had an attachment to.

eleep

[jennyj]

I agree with eleep. I think sometimes we do grieve for things in different stages. I'm like you in not caring much for doughnuts but when I see a dozen on a table I yearn to take a bite. I think it is just normal for us.

[schuyler]

So I'm normal after all!!

I guess I am greiving the loss of foods that I had eaten for 20+ years. You kind of grow attached to things after that long!

I made a nice gluten-free cake this morning, and the boys and I have been pigging out on it all day! It was so good (yes, was; it's gone now!)! I agree that I should focus on what I can have as opposed to what I can't. I can have a great gluten-free cake! There are plenty of things that I've eaten all my life that I can still have (fruit, veggies, etc).

Thanks for reassuring me that this is all normal .