Omg...i Might Be On To Something

[VydorScope]

Jeeze miss a few days to paint a house, attend a confernece and actually gets some work done... and your long forgotten in this thread. No I am not gonna go back and read all the missing pages, almost pointless since none of those are vaild topics anymore, till they are started afresh LOL

[rinne]

.Do you have a Sheriff in Rachelville?

No Maam, we haven't had much trouble until the recent disappearal of Miss Rachel and shucks, she came back fine, still if you would like the job we'd be real happy to have you stay for a while. The money ain't good but the hours are flexible and we just know our magical auxi-gro protecting geese would be happy for the company.

[Daxin]

Glad to see our pres. is okay. It certainly was a good search though. I am glda to see how much we all look out for each other here. IT makes me feel quite welcome.

Andrea -- I am impressed at what you are undertaking. God bless! It's not easy these days to impart some of our values etc to our children. My mother for example has scared my son off of going to church with me on Sundays by almost "cramming" all her ideals down his throat when he was there last summer.

Susan -- Good luck with the painting.

Patti -- Glad to hear you are feeling better!

Everyone else I missed (as there was 9 pages of reading) -- Sorry I did not check in sooner, but this week was crazy. I need some advice. There is a guy at work who is having some issues (personally). He does not take criticism well at all and tried to shift the blame for even the smallest mist insignificant of errors onto other people. (I am an Air Traffic Controller in the Canadian Forces). Yesterday we had to bring 2 SMALL mistakes to his attention and he freaked out! He ended up calling me at home because we asked if he would see the base doctors and social worker. (Apparently this behaviour has been going on for some time and they only see fit to tell us now). He was so angry when he called my home that my wife could hear him yelling over the phone (and she was across the room).

Sorry for the long drawn out explination but I thought it might help. How can I help this person? If I can not, how do I help him see that calling his supervisors at home to yell is inapropriate?

Well, time to go make some breakfast for my darling daughter.

[Guest Robbin]

WELCOME BAAAAACK RACHEL!!!!! I eagerly await the new science lessons.

Ryan-Wow, this guy has some issues. I would insist that he see a counselor-make it mandatory if possible. Too many people depend on him for their safety for him to be careless or have anger issues. Maybe he has a marriage/money problem. Those two are the biggies. I certainly hope he is not drinking or taking drugs.

Hey Vincent-welcome back, you trouble-maker you ! I bet painting the house was BRUTAL with all this heat this week. I couldn't stand to stay out more than 20 minutes it was so hot and humid here and I am not too far from you (I don't think) in Va.

Judy--Please come by more often. You are loved by all!

Patti-How are you feeling? I forget, are you on the same meds at Rachel?

rinne--Hope you are feeling better today. Does warm, humid weather make it worse? (The AS, I mean)

Susan-How long does the staining process take to dry and what kind of sealer are you using? I thought last night that I might try it on my front porch sometime in the future. It is exposed, though not sure if possible. Gotta go -going to a "dog festival" in a neighboring town. Not sure what it will be like, but sounds like fun for BabyRuth. Maybe they will have doggy games and she can win me a stuffed toy, lol.

[Rikki Tikki]

I am still at my brother's in Sacramento, had a blast last night. Got on the computer first thing to make sure Rachel turned up fine! Have a great weekend, will drop in later. I am off to Reno today to go see Hot August nights! I have always wanted to go there. Well, he is actually picking up a car but I hope to see some of it!

[nikki-uk]

Well good to see everyone's back on!!

Things got a bit scary for a while-a bit ghost town like.(Whois responsible for those tumbleweeds?)

I've not been online as much 'cos me flippin' computer has been taking forever and a day to upload stuff and I cop the ump with it( sorry,did I go a bit cockney then?)

Anyway,did a disk clean-up thingy and it seems a bit better now.

I've also been cleaning like mad as we are going on our hols (vacation )next week for 2 weeks.

We are going to the Spanish Island of Tenerife.

(Will y'all miss me??)

My Mum and friend will be coming into my house daily to feed the cats-and you know when you suddenly view your house as if in their eyes.....and oh my word it needs a spring clean!!

I've also been running around trying to get some last minute bits for our holiday ,and all the planning ,organization,washing ,ironing,packing falls to me-I hate that.I can't seem to switch off-all these racing thoughts,scared I will forget something

Nikki -What did you call Australia? OZ? Why is that? I loved your cockney btw a few pages (chapters) back. I hope your poor hubby feels better. I think he must be a really great guy to care about little Megan too

Well I dunno, the Australian's just say Oz as an abbreviation of Australia,but most English do too!

Glad you liked me little bit of cockney luv!

Terry (hubby) hasn't been too well at all.

He's having terrible lower back pain at the moment which stops him sleeping properly.

I can't figure out if it's due to;

A possible spinaching on Monday or

A side effect of the drug he has to take for Osteoporosis.(one of the side effects is bone pain-and all his pain is in his back and hips-where the osteoporosis is worst)

Oh well ,he has a Rheumatology appt on Monday so we will see what they say.

Sorry for rambling on-back to some serious cleaning!

Take care guys-see you later!!

[VydorScope]

Hey Vincent-welcome back, you trouble-maker you smile.gif ! I bet painting the house was BRUTAL with all this heat this week. I couldn't stand to stay out more than 20 minutes it was so hot and humid here and I am not too far from you (I don't think) in Va.

No, I painted inside, almost the entire down stairs. The best part was when I spilled the 5 gallon can of paint I just painted till about 11 or 1130 and thne stopped lol. Prbly used up 8 or so gallons of paint. Im not very skilled so prbly could have been don much faster, it was only my second time painting a wall!

Out side we have mostly siding, but recenly piad some one to powerwash it for me, I can take the heat, over 80 degrees and its rare you see me outside at all.

[Allen]

Yea, what he told me was in the begining any even slightest hint and he would be reacting badly. I think is how he put it. He gave up eating out at all. But that was a couple-few years ago. He still is extremely careful, but the occasional little slip goes by with out reaction.

Is there MSG in your ice cream? I only buy all natural ice cream, or make my self. Ingredienets like "Milk, Cream, Sugar" make sense to me. "LSDKFJLSDJF-9" does not, so I try to aviod it.

Breyers All Natural Ice Cream isn't All Natural anymore. They now add "natural" tara gum. It no longer has the simple ingredients, and it doesn't taste good anymore.

[evie]

We'll have to have t-shirts made up that say, "RACHEL of RACHELVILLE CALL HOME" and send them to all our friends in the Bay Area.

Cecile, I can feel your wonderful spirit all the way up here. You do good just being you.

I think one of the most helpful things we can do is practice friendliness, as the Dalai Lama said, "kindness is my only religion". In our world today this is often under-rated and yet it is precisely this that so often makes the difference between a happy moment and a sad or angry moment and one moment piled on another makes up our lives.

It.

Such a nice philosophy rinne! Yes, way back in my high school yearbook my friendly smile was mentioned, so I go along with the friendly theme, think we all do or we might not be on here!!rinne hope your S. arthritis is on the wane, at least for awhile. thank you for asking about me, I am doing better after my indescretion on snacking foods a few days ago. Am still catching up on my sleep that I lost, most of one night. Remembering the horror of not being able to sleep much a few months ago, I NEED my sleep. We had company last nite so did not do any posting.

Seems there is a mystery on the forum "Where is Rville president??? maybe andreab will solve the puzzle, she is a slueth!! I too am concerned but maybe she is on vacation?? Vacation from us???

Am late fixing lunch so must get going. later all. evie

[jerseyangel]

Evie, Rachel's back! She checked in earlier this morning--she was having computer problems.

She's fine!

[evie]

Evie, Rachel's back! She checked in earlier this morning--she was having computer problems.

She's fine!

Thanks Patti; that is what i get for not reading all the posts (Trouble). glad she is back on in Rville!!

I guess we all depend on our computers to keep us up to date.!! Have a good day all, must go now.

evie

[DingoGirl]

Breyers All Natural Ice Cream isn't All Natural anymore. They now add "natural" tara gum. It no longer has the simple ingredients, and it doesn't taste good anymore.

Well hello Allen! look at this everyone.....a new person, and he put his VERY FIRST POST on our epic thread! You show boldness, courage, and great wisdom , newcomer! Welcome to our fair and perfect cult farm! (you'll have to read a few pages back to know what I'm talking about).

WHAT A RELIEF, OUR PRESIDENT IS BACK....... I"ll call off the visor-searching dingos......but weren't we a riot, with all of our detective work? Dang, we were worried, thinking of you laid up in the hospital somewhere, being poisoned with glutenous foods of all kinds (well, I thought that anyway).....I know two people on this forum have my phone number should I go missing...

Gotta walk the dingos and then paint and p aint some more, it is a blessedly cooler day here.

Had a pretty big meltdown this morning, just cried my eyes out. The poop this morning reveals that there was gluten in the new sparkling italian beverage I was pretending was wine last night ...... but the truth is, despite my silly posts, I have cried every day this week - mostly family-related and how I yearn for closeness with my brother and the girls that I just don't have any more, and I am so, so, so weary of trying - like a Cissyphian effort. So much hurt has been done in the past (by my erratic moods and strong opinions/admonishments to the girls on how they should live - still working on getting rid of the remnants of my late father in my personality!), I am just working on damage control, and getting nothing back from two intense years of trying (since moving home), and the years before that. They ignore my mom the same way, though, and she is a peach of a gal with none of my idiosyncracies....except this morning, she told me that my oldest niece (who just moved back to town) invited my mom and stepfather to lunch this morning (with her boyfriend, who is visiting)....this just did me in and I have been crying off and on for three hours. It's too long to go into but I am heartbroken over the whole ordeal and I guess I"m through trying. My mom and I agreed that this was best for me, just to let go, and so....despite years and years of prayer and effort and trying SO hard, I am LETTING GO. I am actually weeping as I write this.

I am SO sorry for the sad post, will most likely edit later .....or maybe not....need all the prayers I can get right now. Just a sad little Dingo Girl who's gotta get through the day and then tomorrow and then the day after that.....

Love you guys - - hope you all have a great day - - there were things I wanted to comment on, but the dogs are staring intently......but

LYNNIE, OMG, she's at the wedding as we speak, I bet! Can't wait to hear how she got down the aisle...

Ryan - that guy needs counseling - - um, ATC is THE most stressful job in the world and he is unbalanced...

vincent - nice to see you again - - I am feeling the pain of you and Patti...ugh......am happy I get to use the carpet as a drop-cloth, though.....

so sorry for this downer of a post but I just don't know what to DO any more!!! PMS isn't helping.... and the gluten.....does that make anybody just feel kind of mad sometimes, kind of angray? Dang I'm familiar with depression as an emotion, but not so much anger....

[Camille'sBigSister]

I missed out on all the good conversation last night. We had a HUGE thunderstorm!!! Constant lightning, with so many rolls of thunder that you couldn't tell when one stopped and another began! As Cecile would say, good googly moogly!!! No way was I gonna sit at my keyboard. I just went to bed.

I have comments to make, but errands to run first, so I'll talk to you all later.

Cissie

[nikki-uk]

My mom and I agreed that this was best for me, just to let go, and so....despite years and years of prayer and effort and trying SO hard, I am LETTING GO. I am actually weeping as I write this.

Oh poor little dingo girl-sometimes all you can do is let go,-otherwise you perpetually set yourself up to be disappointed and hurt.

If you know in your heart you've done all you can to make amends-well,let it be

Not easy,and easy for me to say,but I bet very few of us have the relationship we would actually like to have with our families.

So sorry you're down,but I know you'll pick yourself up soon

[evie]

Susan... my sad little dingo today... all is not lost! You might have to let go now but that doesn't mean forever, never say never my friend.

I'm really happy you posted this.... we've all made mistakes... gluten maddness... and just general life mistakes that at times seems we can't change.... but I don't really like to look in the rear view mirror (ohhh my who's calling the kettle black?... I still can't let go of the stupid hurricanes)... anyway I try to always look forward. We just got to figure out how to rip the rear view mirror off.

Despite what you think, you are very loved here... we laugh with you and cry with you.

I'll put you and your little sad heart at the top of my prayer list.

Well... I have 1 hour... 28 minutes until we go to the restaurant... not a fun count down... I took a zantac acid reducer just in case... probably won't help but I felt like I had to do something!

Dingo; I agree we all or most hae some regrets from way back or maybe not so far back. I guess i was too bossy growing up with my younger sister and brother and it took a lot of years to sort of aovercome that. even so the two of them have a closer relationship than I have with either of them and alwys will I think.

sometimes we just have to accept what we can not change. My sisterr has always been jealous because my hubby (her hubbies brother) has made a bit more money than hers but they had 6 children to fend for, we had 3. Her hubby was disabled early, mine is also now but not quite as early. Good thing she knows health care since she needs to use it so much/ her hubby. Prayer, if it is god's will, is your best answer for help + getting yourself involved in something you like!!

Floridian, I so hope and pray that you can eat out without paying for it with being sick after. Love to all. evie

[jerseyangel]

Susan, You poor little thing. I really do understand the years of damage to relationships that can result from this whole crummy disease. I suffered from depression, anxiety and panic attacks for many years. This, of course, affected different relationships in different ways. I handled myself a bit differently--prefering to retreat and stay away from any situation or person where I didn't feel comfortable. Since I was embarassed about what I was feeling--not to mention the physical stuff--I wasn't honest with people, which I see now was a mistake. Needless to say, that behavor got me labled as overly sensitive, stand-offish, uncaring, and mean.

I think that now, it may be best to step back a little and let go--for the time being. You are different now, and coming back from where you have has given you a better perspective. Hopefully, as you continue to heal and become comfortable with your new self, the others in your life will, too. Battling back changes a person.

I don't think that there's any reason to edit what you wrote here--I think this is such a wonderful place for being able to get your feelings out. It's safe here--a unique mix of science, laughter, introspection, tears, friendship, you name it!

Getting glutened and having PMS is also not helping, at all, I'm sure

Well... I have 1 hour... 28 minutes until we go to the restaurant... not a fun count down... I took a zantac acid reducer just in case... probably won't help but I felt like I had to do something!

Isn't it sad that something like going out for dinner (which is a fun experience for most people) can put the fear of God into us!

I guess all you can do is be on your guard--I hope that you manage to have a nice time--and most importantly--not get sick.

Remember those hidden seasonings

[Judyin Philly]

Susan, you poor dear one....I sent you a pm as i can't find the post that i got from 'email ' alert...

I think you should just leave it (i can't find it but guess Patti fround it too)

Patti...what great advice...loved your post..so full of wisdome as usual.

I've appreciated your PM esp lately.

Made a big decision--- to send the MLD -PT specialist......off into HELL.... cause that's where she came from.

There is enough hurt in this world that I'm not going to have my insureance company pay for her to abuse me.

chiro yesterday said...leg was worse that before i started with her...must bigger and more swollen. stocking wont fit either...

been a terrible 2 days and accepting I can't go with Jim on Our weekend getaway..next weekend..He is going to do the Art show by himself...

Ok--- residents of Rachelville...can I come and live with you here?????

Maybe you can ask THE PRESIDENT--RACHEL--THINK SHE'LL VOUCH FOR ME

WAITING TO HERE CAUSE MY BAGS ARE PACKED...

JUDY IN PHILLY

[DingoGirl]

you guys....

having a mixture of crying (tons) and laughing, THANK YOU for your blessed thoughts and kind words...Patti, I would never have thought that of you.....THANK YOU, friend.

Nikkie, Evie, thank YOU both for you kind words also....all of this is making me cry harder...but that's good....

Judy - your PM - holy Lord I burst into tears (I've written you back). glad you send that "specialist" back into hell.....that just cracked me up, BTW.

Cecile just got on the phone and called me, and yes, MORE sobbing....thank you, C, what a friend you are.

Yup, I moved less than two miles from my brother and family to have this fantastic, close relationship wtih them that just isn't happening, when all my friends are 10 miles away or more, in another town even.

Can't seem to get out the door with having to run to the pot every half hour. Ugh. I think I"ll just take my roll of TP to the park and squat behind a tree should the need arise. This soda, from TArget - an Italian soda that said "natural lemon and strawberry flavors"....made in Italy. that's the only questionable and new thing yesterday.....ugh.

so sorry to be this sad....got a rager of a headache.....gotta walk the girls and then, more painting....

Please know, your kind thoughts mean the world to me. Wish we could all hang out.

[jerseyangel]

Judy--As Vice President, I can make decisions while Rachel is away! (I guess ) You are welcome here in R'ville--we must now find a job for you. What would you like to do? I've seen pics of your beautiful gardens--possibly a position with our outdoor landscaping group?

I'm SO glad that you are kicking that PT to the curb! Who does she think she is, anyway? Being (supposidly) good at one's job dosen't give one the right to be mean--especially when she knows better than most what you go through every day.

Sorry about the art weekend--Mark and Matt are at a car show thing all this weekend. I can't be outside in the sun and heat, so I'm home alone. Oh well, I get to visit R'ville anytime I want

[Judyin Philly]

Judy--As Vice President, I can make decisions while Rachel is away! (I guess ) You are welcome here in R'ville--we must now find a job for you. What would you like to do? I've seen pics of your beautiful gardens--possibly a position with our outdoor landscaping group?

I'm SO glad that you are kicking that PT to the curb! Who does she think she is, anyway? Being (supposidly) good at one's job dosen't give one the right to be mean--especially when she knows better than most what you go through every day.

Sorry about the art weekend--Mark and Matt are at a car show thing all this weekend. I can't be outside in the sun and heat, so I'm home alone. Oh well, I get to visit R'ville anytime I want

Thanks Patti and Susan...your the best.

going to wrap my leg and get out into the dirt NOW.

OUT OF HERE..AND COMING TO RACHEL VILLE SOON AFTER I WEED SOME OF THE GARDEN..BEEN 9 WEEKS IF I DON'T WRITE BACK SEND SOMEONE TO COME AND FIND ME AS LOST IN THE 10 FT WEEDS.

THANKS FOR THE SMILES (BETTER THAN THE TEARS) AND pATTI--THANKS FOR SUPPORTING MY DECISION IT WAS SUCH A HARD ONE AS HAVE 10 MORE APTS.

JUDY

[Camille'sBigSister]

Susan, my dear, check your email. Love you.

Cissie

P.S. Natural flavors usually mean beware of hidden msg!

[AndreaB]

Andrea -- I am impressed at what you are undertaking. God bless! It's not easy these days to impart some of our values etc to our children. My mother for example has scared my son off of going to church with me on Sundays by almost "cramming" all her ideals down his throat when he was there last summer.

Ryan,

I completely understand what you are going through with your mother. My mother isn't a christian which can be just as bad as someone cramming different beliefs down you or a loved ones throats. I must confess this board has taught me to be more accepting of different beliefs, but we are still teaching our children what we believe. The challenging part is teaching them to be accepting of those who believe differently. Children only see black and white and everything different than what they believe is wrong. I assume more of that understanding will come as they get older.

That situation with your ATF sounds scary. He definately needs some kind of intervention. Hopefully next week will be a little calmer for you.

I am still at my brother's in Sacramento, had a blast last night. Got on the computer first thing to make sure Rachel turned up fine! Have a great weekend, will drop in later. I am off to Reno today to go see Hot August nights! I have always wanted to go there. Well, he is actually picking up a car but I hope to see some of it!

Have fun Tavi.

I've also been cleaning like mad as we are going on our hols (vacation )next week for 2 weeks.

We are going to the Spanish Island of Tenerife.

(Will y'all miss me??)

I've also been running around trying to get some last minute bits for our holiday ,and all the planning ,organization,washing ,ironing,packing falls to me-I hate that.I can't seem to switch off-all these racing thoughts,scared I will forget something

Glad you liked me little bit of cockney luv!

Terry (hubby) hasn't been too well at all.

He's having terrible lower back pain at the moment which stops him sleeping properly.

I can't figure out if it's due to;

A possible spinaching on Monday or

A side effect of the drug he has to take for Osteoporosis.(one of the side effects is bone pain-and all his pain is in his back and hips-where the osteoporosis is worst)

Oh well ,he has a Rheumatology appt on Monday so we will see what they say.

Sorry for rambling on-back to some serious cleaning!

Take care guys-see you later!!

Nikki,

Have fun on your holiday. I hope your hubby feels better soon and can enjoy your trip. At least we know why you'll be gone. I think it would be terribly difficult to track you down being in a different country and all.

Breyers All Natural Ice Cream isn't All Natural anymore. They now add "natural" tara gum. It no longer has the simple ingredients, and it doesn't taste good anymore.

Welcome Allan! We hope to see you again.

[jerseyangel]

Hi Nikki--You sound busy!

Hope you and your family have a great holiday (that's the right word?)! We'll miss you, and will want to know all about it when you get back

I hope your husband's back starts feeling better. You did say he's to see his doctor soon, right? It's a shame that he's feeling badly now when you're going away.

I know what you mean about leaving the house clean--especially when people will be there without you! I always try to leave everything done so I don't have to walk into a mess when I get home. Lord knows that there's a ton of laundry to do then

[AndreaB]

Had a pretty big meltdown this morning, just cried my eyes out. The poop this morning reveals that there was gluten in the new sparkling italian beverage I was pretending was wine last night ...... but the truth is, despite my silly posts, I have cried every day this week - mostly family-related and how I yearn for closeness with my brother and the girls that I just don't have any more, and I am so, so, so weary of trying - like a Cissyphian effort. So much hurt has been done in the past (by my erratic moods and strong opinions/admonishments to the girls on how they should live - still working on getting rid of the remnants of my late father in my personality!), I am just working on damage control, and getting nothing back from two intense years of trying (since moving home), and the years before that. They ignore my mom the same way, though, and she is a peach of a gal with none of my idiosyncracies....except this morning, she told me that my oldest niece (who just moved back to town) invited my mom and stepfather to lunch this morning (with her boyfriend, who is visiting)....this just did me in and I have been crying off and on for three hours. It's too long to go into but I am heartbroken over the whole ordeal and I guess I"m through trying. My mom and I agreed that this was best for me, just to let go, and so....despite years and years of prayer and effort and trying SO hard, I am LETTING GO. I am actually weeping as I write this.

I am SO sorry for the sad post, will most likely edit later .....or maybe not....need all the prayers I can get right now. Just a sad little Dingo Girl who's gotta get through the day and then tomorrow and then the day after that.....

Susan,

What a tough time you are going through. First of all a big HUG. You are such a caring, kind person....you're family will realize it. You have done everything humanly possible to heal the rift between you and your brother and family. Now it's time to step back and let God work in their hearts. I know it is hard and I'd be crying if I was in your shoes too. You have done what God had you set out to do. Give yourself some breathing room and continue forward now in your health and well being. Be sensitive to God's voice and He will let you know what the next step will be and when. God only asks us to make restitution, you have done that, now it's up to the other party to accept. Go on with your life in peace that you have done what God asked and the contentment of a job well done.

I do hope that your glutening is over with quickly. I love ALL your posts and don't change a thing. They are who you are. I wish I could join you down in California for the celiac conference, just not possible for us, especially with young children. Focus your attention on that, your house projects and your health, but above all on God. He won't let you down even if everyone else foresakes you in this life. I love you and your dingo girls and would very much miss you if you weren't here with us.

I've got to eat...I'll be back to finish catching up afterwards.

[Judyin Philly]

Hey, Susan, did you make it out the door with your 'dingo's??

Poor things--bet they had to pee for hrs

oh, if you did walk them, did you find a 'tree for you???? " Hope you didn't forget your t/p

sure hope your spirits are better.

i went outside and while the 'leg is as {BIG AS THE TREE YOU MIGHT HAVE FOUND TO P** BEHIND{ I had a great time and did me a world of good.

hang in there

judy in philly